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Female , 41-45

42 and really having a hard time in my little life,just found out that I have the scary virus! The hand I hold is different now,and I have to play this hand I'm dealt, I'm very scared about what lays in front of me.

Last Seen Aug 29, 2012
Member Since Aug 17, 2009
Favorite Quote WHAT THE FUCK!
Heritage
  • 100% American
Vices i-pod - books, alot of pot,writing, my blog on EP, laughing with my beauiful daughter!
Politics Very Liberal
Horoscope Cancer
Special day 5-28
Books a lot
Music rock-roll baby
Movies alot
Local Time July 29th, 10:38 PM

I Battle Depression

Went In My Dad's Room Today And Begain Cleaning His Blood Up And Brain Matter- Feel him watching me from the otherside. I feel close to him now. He is being my daddy! I feel him all around me making me feel wanted and important to him.. I cleaned his room.i smell death The... [more]
skybleeds has shared 2 Mature Experiences
  • I Am Lonely

    Oh Mighty God!      NO  normal man wants to touch me! OH please can I go back to my old life?  I will never get to feel  a normal man in side of me again sweet lord!  This … [more]
  • I Am Lonely

    I Sit In My Sister's Repo House All By Myself With No body! I've push everyone that I love alway from me. Here I sit feeling like a outsider, that I'm not a human anymore! I feel the HIV infection has taken my body mind and soul over  No m… [more]
  • I Am Lonely

    Still Waiting To Start My New Life I  SIT IN THIS LITTLE ROOM, EVERYDAY, THINKING OH OH OH OH PLEASE, WHY, CAN'T I BE A REAL PERSON? WHAT AM I WAITING FOR, I KEEP TELLING MYSELF EVERYNIGHT, WHEN MY TV IS OFF, AND I AM ALL … [more]
  • I Am Lonely

    I Am A Dam Fool! Today I got off my bed and took a shower got dressed put my cell phone in my hands got in my car and put my cell up to my ear and talked to myself on the way to 7-11 jump out of my suv and still ta… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    I WAS GOING ON A BOOTIE CALL ONE NIGHT, GOING TO FAST, IN MY SPORTS CAR AND
    I A LITTLE KITTEN, JUMP OUT ON TO THE ROAD, AND I SAW IT LOOK AT ME, IT HAD BIG *** GREEN GLASS CAT EYES, I WAS TO BUSY SINGING A SONG THAT I LIKED, AND I TRYED TO STOP BUT IT WAS TO LATE! I FELT MY SPORTS CAR, RUN IT OVER, AND I LOOKED BACK AND SAW IT ON THE STREET, AND DID NOT GO BACK TO SAVE, THE LITTLE SWEET THING. I HAVE ALLWAYS FELT SO SO BAD, ABOUT IT. I SURE HOPE IT IS IN A BETTER PLACE, THEN THIS WORLD.… [more]
  • MAKING MY SELF PUT A ADD ON CRAIGS-LIST TODAY

    Posted on: July 5th, 2010 at 2:17PM

    To clean people house's i have to grow the **** U! I used to be a millionaire but now i am not Its all long gone Just like all the men that i have had. Why have i done this to myself? Look what drinking and taking pills for so many years did to my life, when i was a young women i would go to AA meeting because i had to go, i would walk in there in the AA room with a room full of middle age loser's thinking to myself that will never ever happen to me I would be sitting on one of the AA chairs with a short min dress on living in the 80's looking and thinking i'm hot ****, i was in my 20's never thinking i would end u home less having my daughter to buy food for me GO GO dancing for us, having… [more]

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  • MY CELL PHONE GOT TURNED OFF.

    Posted on: July 13th, 2010 at 3:13PM

    Look at what not going to college did to my ***! But i am not good at school, i don't get it! Thank god my baby's daddy is a member at the mensa club! Sitting around in this repo house is not going to get me anywhere! ! I only have 2 cleaning jobs this week! That is not going to pay my bills! .Went to my doctor's and my t-cell count is at 480 it used to be at 220, i asked my doctor if she will give me some pain pills, she looked at me and laughed! I need a new doctor! My bones hurt! She dose not want me to get in to them! Everyone eles takes them! That's ****** u! I need to man the **** u and get the **** over my sad *** and just do it! I will be home less real fucken soon! What is… [more]

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  • SOMETHING BAD AND EviL= --- .. KILLED MY CAT-!

    Posted on: June 30th, 2010 at 1:12PM

    My baby Zeppelin my Cat of seven years got out a door last night and i found him this morning--- in the grass right next to my sis repo house he was headless and his guts were all over the grass. I got his favor blaket and pick his little body up and i huged him and looked at his white paws and wrap his body in it i coundn't looked for his head thats to much! I can only take so much in life! my daughter and i burr him in his fav box and put his toy in the box and some cat nIp and we had some sage to burn, and put him in the earth. I know he is at a better place! I told him i will be there real soon! That I'm so so so sorry sweet baby that mommy was not there to help u! And i hope it… [more]

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  • Year two sober from the DRINK------------------- . Spending Mother's day with

    Posted on: May 8th, 2011 at 2:50PM

    My daughter, Love being sober!            SSi turned me down, saying that i'am fit for working out in the world. Maybe there are right. Start looking for work, i will make it. I'M a strong *** women and can take anything you throw at me! I will not be lazy! Have my daughter back in my life again! Still feel crazy in my head. Went to the doctors and i am very anemia,  the aliEN's from the SKY are sucking my blood up inside me very slowly, i can feel them.     I will not drink today-Sky.- HApppy Mother's day to all the sweet mom's in the world.-Hugs. Went on a beach walk with my daughter today. Love her so much.… [more]

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