Female , 18-21
it's weird being on here again O.o

I haven't been on here in a few years but now I'm coming on here like everyday again, I kinda missed being on here. I am in my freshman year of college now and it's not so bad. I used to play basketball for a few years in high school but haven't kept it up. I like photography and bird watching. I also enjoy playing video games and watching youtube videos. I'm really reserved and quiet in real life but online I'm a bit more open and talkative. I love talking to and helping people and making good friends, and it's just a lot easier to do that online, so feel free to message me anytime! I tend to be get attached to people pretty quick which can really suck when that person leaves but I never learn. Over the past few years I've struggled with/continue to struggle with eating disorders, depression, self-harm, social anxiety and hair pulling. I'd like to think that the worst of all that is behind me since things have improved with time. Also I feel that it's important to say that a few years have passed since my older stories, obviously, and I don't encourage/agree with/engage in those activities anymore and my whole mindset has changed a lot. To anyone who's struggling with an eating disorder or depression or whatever else, don't look at my stories and try to model them or think that I'm a bad person or anything. I'm a very different person now and I just want to put it out there that life gets better and struggles don't last forever and don't ever give up because things will change for the better!

Last Seen 8 hrs ago
Member Since Dec 30, 2011
Favorite Quote Just because I don\'t talk to you doesn\'t mean I don\'t care about you.
  • a little French
  • and a little Irish
  • and a little German
  • and a little Spanish
Politics Moderate
Horoscope Sagittarius
Special day
Books Harry Potter, Truth About Forever, 13 Reasons Why, Perks of Being A Wallflower; and authors like Dean Koontz, Ellen Hopkins and Sarah Dessen
Music Mostly rock, singer/songwriter and alternative, such as; Linkin Park, The Fray, Breaking Benjamin, Pierce the Veil, OneRepublic, Coldplay, Skillet, Three Days Grace, Marianas Trench
Movies Jurassic Park, Lion King, Saw, Insidious, Suicide Room, Bridge to Terabithia, The Fault in Our Stars
Local Time June 3rd, 7:47 AM

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