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Female , 18-21
Feeling excited
First semester is over, no more homework to do this weekend! Wooo!!

I've played basketball for a few years but now I haven't played in two years, although I kinda want to start playing again. I'd like to think I'm a fairly good sketch artist. I love listening to music and watching gamer videos on youtube, and sometimes playing video games. I procrastinate a lot on pretty much everything. I'm really quiet and reserved in real life, but online I'm usually more open. I love talking to people and helping anybody who needs help. It honestly makes me feel happy knowing that people rely on me and need me. I can be really funny and sarcastic but only if I'm comfortable around you, otherwise I'm really reserved. I'm a senior in high school and I'm SO not ready to graduate! Growing up scares me and I'm not ready to be on my own. My anxiety just totally overwhelms me when I think about it. I struggle with seasonal depression and also will self harm sometimes when I'm particularly depressed. I've had different eating disorders over the past few years, but mainly I just struggle with binge eating. I don't have any close friends in real life or online. I've been going to counseling for nearly 2 years and I think has helped some but not a whole lot because I still find it hard to be open and honest with anybody, even my counselor. Sometimes I really want to be left alone and I'll isolate myself and won't talk to anybody, but if you give me enough time then I'll come out of hiding :P

Last Seen Aug 3
Member Since Dec 30, 2011
Favorite Quote Just because I don\'t talk to you doesn\'t mean I don\'t care about you.
Heritage
  • a little French
  • and a little Irish
  • and a little German
  • and a little Spanish
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Politics Conservative
Horoscope Sagittarius
Special day
Books Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Hunger Games, 13 Reasons Why, Perks of Being A Wallflower; Dean Koontz, Ellen Hopkins and Sarah Dessen books too
Music Mostly rock, singer/songwriter and alternative, such as; Linkin Park, The Fray, Breaking Benjamin, Pierce the Veil, OneRepublic, Coldplay, Skillet, Three Days Grace, Marianas Trench, Ed Sheeran
Movies Jurassic Park, Lion King, Matrix, Harry Potter, Final Destination, Saw, Insidious, Suicide Room, Bridge to Terabithia
Local Time October 25th, 6:25 PM

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