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I Wish Someone Could Relate To My Life Of Unexplainable Issues

You Oughtta Know... Found out that my chest pain may be something real. The doctor wants to do a cardiac cath with the understanding that if he does find something he will do by-pass surgery immediately. The only person... [more]
  • I Wish Someone Could Relate To My Life Of Unexplainable Issues

    How Many Things Can Go Wrong With One Human Body? degenerative disk disease which brings chronic back pain thyroid disorder which causes a non-existent metabolism migraines chest pain which has not responded to treatment alle… [more]
  • I Am Bipolar

    Will The Real Me Please Step Forward... Lying there in the dimly lit room on the scratchy red cot I would never sleep. I was always restless my mind just wandering here and there, always keeping myself amused. One day, I wondered "what woul… [more]
  • I Am Bipolar

    Meds, Meds Go Away Turture Someone Else Today My meds are supposed to help, right? So why do I hate them so? I take 15 separate pills every day and every pill I take has side effects. There are the headaches, the constan… [more]
  • I Am a Teacher

    A Day In My Life... Looking over at him, the teacher yelled, "Sit up! Why aren't you paying attention? Lincoln, you always slow the class down." Furiously walking over to his seat the rest of the class sat speechless, th… [more]
  • Friends Confessions

    It can't be true...
    Someone I know was attacked and brutally beaten this morning in the parking lot where she works. Apparently her attacker was her ex-boyfriend who she broke up with be/c of abuse. I'm told she will be ok but she sustained a head injury so it is unclear how long it will take her to recover. I just can't believe this happened to such a wonderful person.… [more]
  • Family Confessions

    a moment in time
    There was a time when everything and everyone else came before what I needed. I have health problems now as a result. I need to find a way to put myself first without becoming a completely different person. I fear that taking care of me will turn away those I love because they depend on me. What to do?… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I need help.I was out shopping and this person in front of me dropped their debit card as they tried to put it in their back pocket. So I said, "excuse me sir, I think you dropped your credit card." The person spun around and verbally attacked me - it wasn't a he, it was a she! She accused me of all sorts of hateful intents and I was only trying to help!If you dress like a guy (complete with saggy pants and boxers hanging out), walk like a guy, cut your hair like a guy....the whole nine yards - then why are you angry when someone thinks you are a guy????? I mean isn't that what you're going for?What did I do that was wrong?… [more]
  • Work Confessions

    Just want a moment to myself, is that too much to ask?
    I work in an office with restrooms that have multi-stalls. When I go to the bathroom I always check to see if a colleague is already in one of the stalls. If they are II go back later. I just can't handle hearing my colleagues taking a dump, straining or worse - stinking up the place. More than that I want to throw up when they want to have a conversation while we are both going. Does this make me weird?I can use public restrooms with more than one stall. I think it is because I don't know anyone else and no one tries to talk to me.… [more]
  • still waiting

    Posted on: April 7th, 2011 at 7:31PM

    haven't heard anything about my interview yet. Can't eat, can't sleep. I've convinced myself I didn't get it. I could really use some positive energy. My mood: extremely nervous… [more]


  • What I have eaten today...

    Posted on: April 3rd, 2012 at 8:55AM

    This morning I drank hot tea with Splenda and fat-free milk and I ate a bowl of Lucky Charms with 2% milk. I am not hungry but I'm craving food, no, really. Why do I have this overwhelming obsession to eat? There is so much food in this house - none of it healthy. I keep telling myself to get up on go somewhere, anywhere and stop thinking about food. But I know if I go out all I will do is eat. I'm really stuck here.… [more]


  • avoidance

    Posted on: January 14th, 2011 at 7:56PM

    Sometimes I feel like a balloon searching for the sky and at other times I feel like someone has hit me with a dart and I'm crashing to the ground. Funny thing is I really like balloons, I find them peaceful and calming. But, the image of my life as a balloon creates terror for me.I spent time with friends and family over the last few days and really started to enjoy myself. Then, before you know it the slingshot. I need to figure out how to avoid this weapon of mass destruction.I'm looking at my meds thinking: what's the point?My mood: extremely nervous… [more]


  • Against the Odds

    Posted on: March 24th, 2011 at 6:48PM

    I am grateful for the life I have eventhough I have bipolar. There are certainly very dark days in my past and more to come in my future but somehow I'm accepting that this was all meant to be. I mean, it all has to be part of something greater, something with purpose.Right?Do you believe that this life is meant to be? Do you believe more in fate or destiny? My mood: very content… [more]