sophrai 61-65, M

I knew the day was coming. they don't live forever. But, my father passed away peacefully today - early this afternoon. He made it to almost 90 years of age - was married to my mom for an incredible 67 years. Seems so strange - knowing him for over 60 years and not having him here anymore. I'm both very sad and very grateful. If you haven't already, get to know your parents, make peace with them, drop your resentments, love them - no matter what they may have done to you. There is no such thing as a perfect parent.… [more]

I got a phone call today from my older brother who told me my 28 year old nephew - the son of my younger brother - had killed himself. He semed to have so much going for him - an absolutely beautiful girlfriend and a 3 year old son, good health, a job. Seems he had money issues, or at least that's the only problem I heard about from the family. I can't believe money alone would drive an otherwise perfectly healthy person to do himself in. I know he used to be on some pretty heavy drugs and had been arrested several times for his involvement with them. But that ended several years ago, so we think. He never let anyone else know about his problems, kept his feelings and involvements to himself… [more]

It was a beautiful car - a '94 Honda Accord 5 speed - excellent condition - custom wheels - custom lights - great custom sound system. I kept it in immaculate condition. Tonight it got totaled. Rear-ended by some kid with no tags on his car, a revoked driver's license, no insurance and no brain. He said he couldn't stop because his tires didn't have any tread on them. I looked at the tires, and they didn't, but even with no tread I should have heard some skidding sound - or horn - before the impact. I'm sure there's a good reason his license was revoked, and there's ceertainly a better one now. Funny, he volunteered to me, as soon as he got out of the car, that he hadn't been drinking, wasn'… [more]

I killed a cat tonight. It looked bright enough, it's eyes shining in my headlights. Looked right at me as I drove up the street, so I thought it wouldn't bolt out in front of me. I slowed down, swerved to miss and ran right over it. Saw it in my rear view mirror just lying there - no movement at all. I feel so bad about it. I love all animals, and have 2 cats myself. And what about the owner(s)? Maybe it was part of a household with children. I'm having a hard time with it. This is a bad feeling.… [more]