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Female , 18-21
Feeling upset
My life is made of "I'm sorry". I feel like I have to apologise to people, to things, to life itself. It's like "I'm sorry to be here".

I'm a 5ft short girl from Sri Lanka but born in Denmark. Lived in England for long 5 years. Have a passion for photographing, music and art.

But I still have a story to tell.

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