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I Hate My Mother

My Mother Has Told Me That I Hate Her Until it finally came true. Years of her telling me how I don't like her. The funny thing about self-fulfilling prophecies. They eventually come true.I didn't particularly like her for... [more]
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  • I Have a Mom With Mental Illness

    Still Searching.. I am not sure what disorder she has; she refuses to see a doctor or seek any treatment. I believe she has BPD but it could also be Anti-Social Personality Disorder. I want to figure out what she … [more]
  • I Am a Serious Cannabis Enthusiast

    For Me, It's At Least Half Medicinal. I have IBS, anxiety and depression. I had severe depression in junior high and high school; I begged my parents to see a psychologist, doctor, counselor, anyone, anything, They laughed and said I coul… [more]
  • Family Confessions

    When I was 16
    I told my parents I wanted to see a therapist because I was suicidal. They laughed at me because I had nothing to be sad about. Then condescendingly said I should be able to talk to them. I was never able to trust either again. Writing saved my life.… [more]
  • Family Confessions

    My grandmother used to tease me
    My grandmother used to tease me for being overweight. According to the doctor, I wasn't quite in the "overweight" category, but I was chubby. My mother and father also had they're part in this but the memories of my grandma are the worst. I can't even think of anything nice she ever did for me except buying this or that just to rub it in my face later on. That aside, I absolutely hated her for several years. Later I forgave her, but only to myself. For I soon realized she denied the whole thing. What's the point of forgiveness if no lesson is learned? In any case, she's always been such a mean person. Meanness runs in my family. And it stops with me. … [more]
  • Family Confessions

    Mom dating possible criminal
    My mom is dating a guy who has a record for stealing, forgery, etc. She knows and says he's changed. But others say he's still doing it.… [more]
  • Family Confessions

    Metaphorical rod up my butt
    I confessed that I was never able to trust my parents after they denied me help for being suicidal at 15/16. Later on, I was denied help again by my mother. I can't get over it. I don't think I can ever come to terms with that. There's a lot of other junk that upsets me as well. But, that, I can't get over. She doesn't care because I had nothing to be "sad" about. But when she's depressed (it's genetic, you know), it's the end of the world. Even though she's not close to homelessness or struggling like I am. When my father died, she got property. I got nothing. What ever. It is was it is. But I can't get over not being cared about. She would say she loved me in one breath and then say that … [more]
  • What HealthCare Reform means to me.

    Posted on: March 7th, 2011 at 11:06AM

    I live in the US; we have amazing healthcare (I'm told) but no one can afford it. I'd really like to see some doctors. I have IBS (almost always nauseous), anxiety, depression. Crippling migraines. I'd like to have insurance...but what I really want is Single Payer. I know there are a lot of myths and falsehoods out there about what it could mean, but those were never truths or truths that have been mangled. I know everyone has there reasons and thoughts on this subject. That's okay. But don't demonize me because I rely on an idea that usually does work. My family is against it. Against any reform. Why? NOT do due the same reasons as others who oppose (at least not publicly). Because of stoc… [more]

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  • Hypocrites annoy me.

    Posted on: January 10th, 2011 at 1:20PM

    You know what? My whole life my family tells me to be who I am, make my own path, be myself, don't worry about trying to fit in- that's not what life is about, blah blah blah...Then you tell them something about yourself, i.e., come out as an Atheist or Bisexual. And they suddenly realize how much they can't stand anything about you. What a bunch of-My mood: a bit annoyed… [more]

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  • Denial is harmful

    Posted on: May 19th, 2010 at 2:23PM

    I am toying with the idea of posting my entire story on my own website, non-anonymously. But I figure if I can write anonymous blog posts and stories that get it out, maybe it'll be enough? There's only one way to find out. So here I am. I tried to get my mother psychological help and she refused passed one session. She said I was trying to brainwash her. It appears as though I am being blamed from my grandmother (her mom of course) for trying to help because my family is in denial. They see it as an insult to say she needs help. Even after descriptions of verbal and passive-aggressive abuse, its still my fault for not letting the past go. Which is actually the present and the future. Its … [more]

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  • Can't

    Posted on: October 16th, 2011 at 10:01AM

    I can't sleep in. I can't poop. My head hurts. That is all for now.My mood: very depressed… [more]

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