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Female , 26-30
Feeling hopeful
Just some grad school stuff.

I'm a good person. I try to treat people the way that I want to be treated. I try to be respectful of everyone, and I try to see and act on things from a logical point of view. I try not to act on impulse or let my emotions get the better of me.. basically I have a lot of patience.

My life sucks a lot. I've gone through way too much, and I often wonder when I am going I am going to get the chance to breathe a breath of relief. Nothing goes the way I hope. In general I think I am a good person, but I constantly get screwed in everything. I'm sick of living my life. I wish I would die.

The worst thing to happen to me recently, is that I was pregnant, and I gave birth too early at 5 and a half months. My daughter did not survive and she passed away. I miss her a lot, and I wish so bad she was still with me.

I don't know what to do with my life now because I thought that in a few months I'd have a daughter to take care of. But now I have nothing. In the Spring I am going back to school because I don't know what else to do. I want to have another baby, but I can't see myself doing that anytime soon.. the only baby I want is my daughter, Alana. And I know I can't have her.

Last Seen Sep 14, 2013
Member Since Oct 18, 2007
Favorite Quote Chic? I could never be chic. - Sid Vicious
Heritage
  • a little Puerto Rican
  • and a little Dominican (Dominican Republic)
Vices I'm a good girl.. sometimes
Politics Moderate
Horoscope Aquarius
Special day
Books I Am Legend, Take A Walk On The Dark Side, The Legend of Sleepy Hallow, Guide to Getting It On, Beautiful Death
Music Norma Jean, At the Drive-In, He Is Legend, Emery, Kiss KIss, Stars, Killswitch Engage, Soasin, As I Lay Dying, Every Time I Die, Mr. Bungle, Muse, As Cities Burn, Anberlin, Sublime, Voodoo Glow Skulls
Movies Night of the Living Dead, Dawn of the Dead, Day of the Dead, Land of the Dead, Saw, Requiem For a Dream, Troy, Kingdom of Heaven, Little Miss Sunshine, Old School, Sleepy Hallow, From Hell, Quills
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