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Male , 22-25
Zuid-Holland Nederland

No idea what to say really. Main thing you need to know is that my heart is bigger than my head. I'm not a really good talker, but I'll always try to help someone in need. Always. Other than that, I always listen to music. Generally rock and metal. Rythm and anger to clear my mind and survive another day. My one wish, is for 1 person to come and take care of my heart. That is all.

Feel free to talk to me about anything!

Last Seen Oct 23, 2013
Member Since Aug 24, 2012
Favorite Quote When two rivers run together, they can never be distinct again.
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  • 100% Dutch
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Horoscope Scorpio
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Music Sevendust, Spineshank, Silent Civilian, Five Finger Death Punch
Movies Howl's Moving Castle.
Local Time July 25th, 7:11 PM

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The Song That Haunts Me. Sevendust - Xmas Day [more]
Synthrax has shared 2 Mature Experiences
  • I Self Harm

    Just Another Ghost Story. Not sure if I should actually share my story. Guess trying never hurts, right? Here's my story, this is what brought me to find salvation in the blade. As long as I can remem… [more]
  • I Have a Broken Heart

    A Faded Flame. As the title states, the flame has faded. The ashes are still smoldering, but I honestly doubt anything is going to ignite it again. I've known this girl for a good 3 years, been in a rel… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    The bird.
    Love is like a bird. I'm the left wing and you're the right wing. A bird needs both wings to be able to stay in the air. So too, does love need both people to work together.  You've betrayed me, but I continued to fight for us. You never did anything to try and fix what you've broken. We're crashing to the pavement and I guess there's nothing to be done about it anymore.… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    A fading dream.
    Right. So I'm in a relationship with a girl who pretty much neglects me. Every.Single.Day. Even with all the things she's done to me, I still love her. Every day I keep telling myself that I can do better. That I deserve better. Yet, when I see her face. I just can't tell her. I can't tell her that I'm done with it all. I've given her so many chance to right all her wrongs...but she does nothing at all. Nothing to try and get me to stay. Just the same old line every effing day. I miss how she was, 2 years ago. She made me feel so loved. But now....I'm clinging to hope that she'll realize it all and returns to her old self... My heart can't let her go and my mind is telling me I'm a damned fo… [more]
  • Nice guys finish last.

    Posted on: September 13th, 2012 at 1:44AM

    When I was little, I never got what that meant. I always believed that nice people were more appreciated and things like that. But now that I'm older it makes sense. The nicer you are, the more likely you'll help someone out without getting anything in return. When it's you who needs help, you're on your own. It's pretty sad. The people who constantly sacrifice themselves for the sake of others get stabbed in the back pretty much every day. I really wonder why this is, though. I've always lived life treating others the way I wished to be treated and I can't say that it was worth it. Guess I'll just move to the back of the line by default, no point in trying anymore, right?… [more]

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  • All I want.

    Posted on: September 7th, 2012 at 2:35AM

    All I want is love. Even better, it's all I need. My heart is way too big for just myself, it needs to take care of someone else. I just want to make someone happy. Give her the feeling that she's the most special person in the world. I want to make sure this person has no worries or doubts at all. I want to carry the weight of the world for that person. That's all I want.  I don't care what I do, I don't care where I'll be. As long as this person loves me aswell. That this person tries to cheer me up when I'm sad. That she'll be waiting for me to get back when I'm gone. That she'll miss me. The list goes on. I've been saving myself for that right person. If I feel like it won't last, I won'… [more]

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  • An empty shell.

    Posted on: August 28th, 2012 at 6:48AM

    So here I stand, the man of what I once used to be. An empty shell of what was once alive and in control.I just can't seem to get a single second in the day where I get to take care of myself. Of my own needs. I'm constantly tasked with carrying the world for other people. And none of these people care to give me a hand with mine. I carry the weight of the world for many people and it's tearing me apart. I can't stop doing it, because it's who I am. I care for others before I take care of myself. It's just that everyone's so damned selfish that no one sees that I'm walking down the path of self-destruction. The only form of human interaction I have is getting kicked when I'm already down, in… [more]

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