Female , 46-50

Have recently changed everything in my life. I have sold everything that was my life. I only kept a few animals and some land for now. Gave others what i wanted them to have , at least no one will fight over it later. Unless miracles happen i am starting to expect the worse but so many here keep me laughing, just when i really need it! I still find myself putting other ahead of me at least i can do that. I never judge and wish others could be the same.

Last Seen Jun 23
Member Since Dec 09, 2009
Favorite Quote Sometimes i just need a shoulder to cuddle on, a pair of arms to wrap around me so i can close my eyes & pretend everything is fine...
Vices feeling too much,
Horoscope Pisces
Special day 3-4
Books Out of Africa, The Note Book and lots more
Music All most all types of music !
Movies Western, crime and action movies
Local Time August 1st, 8:08 PM

I Realized How Little Time We Have In This Life

This Is So True Time Never Waits A good friend of mine was suppose to get married Wed.Feb.22. They had a wonderful Valentines Day together followed by a nice quiet dinner . They went home the next morning her phone rings, his sister... [more]
tennesseecountrygirl has shared 29 Mature Experiences
  • I Have Cancer Throughout My Body

    My Cancer Is Everywhere  Cancer the word that noone ever wants to hear.The first time i was 22, found out i had a growth on my vocal cords. Got lucky it was removed no problem, then at 36 a growth in my arm. Again i … [more]
  • I Was An Abused Child

    Unloved Child   Life was never easy for me growing up. My mother let me know at an early age that i was not wanted! Of course being the middle child, 2 brothers and 2 sisters left me wondering "how cou… [more]
  • I Believe There Are Angels Among Us

    Not Always Considered An Angel        I will have to say i do now believe there are angels out there. People who give or say things that make a real difference in ones life. For me it happened after i … [more]
  • I Can't Stop Thinking About You

    Thinking Of You    Why your always on mind is some thing i wish i could shake! The long talks, laughing at eachother over something crazy we did. I avoid talking to you wanting to keep you at arms length… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    Sometimes it Hurts
    Sometimes things are hard to face in our lives. For me it was years of abuse from someone who said they loved me! Why did i allow it to happen for many years? Good question, i didn't need him! I had my own place, my own money so why? Guess i was stupid, or scared no real answer there. Letting someone control everything and hearing their voice you cringe waiting to see what you do to set them off this time! Finely getting out and enjoying life is so new and at the same time scary. Meeting new people getting close, then something they say or do set your heart pumping. You take a few steps back they don't understand, you will never help them to understand unless they've been there! I know some… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    mind or heart
    I wish my heart and brain would get alone. Both keep fighting what the other wants! I love him but fear keeps stepping in, heart break isn't the word here! Life really sucks...… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    A new leaf
    Today i plan on no more feeling depressed or worring (as much) about what others think! I want to smile and feel good again. My lifes been so crazy this past year and i want to relax and be less stressed. I am me thats all i can be for now, i can't please everyone and i need to start with myself first. I need to stop putting everyones feelings before mine. Its true the person you love the most usually hurts you the most even if they never realize it! Sometimes they neve realize it no matter how hard you try and show them. Hope everyone smiles today! We have to start some where.… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    Too much
    Today was a day from hell. Too much stress every way i turned. Two people in the hospital, neither doing well. Home life still stressful, the stress isn't helping my illness any and every way i turn its not exactly what i hoped. The tickers bad and doctor say no stress lol sure not in this life!… [more]
  • Emotions

    Posted on: February 12th, 2010 at 7:30PM

    Why is it when we find something good our emotions get in the way? Things have been so wonderful couldn't ask for much more, but then we make excuses why we can't do things or take the next step we know we really want to take! We mess up a good thing because we wont just go for it with no looking back ! Damn i so wish i could just say the hell with it and jump, but not sure i can just yet and i'm sorry for that. Might loose what means the most to me at this point... just not sure i can jump yet i'm sorry! … [more]


  • When does life back off

    Posted on: August 4th, 2010 at 10:57PM

    I wish at times i could throw my hands up and things would be better. But so far yelling oh crap hasn't worked! You would think life would be easier by ones mid 40s but my life seems to be totally crazy at the moment. One day it seems things are going as planned then something side lines the plans. Makes one wonder why and who has it out for me? Don't think lifes going to be that simple, but i sure wish it would ease up soon!… [more]


  • Plans

    Posted on: February 4th, 2010 at 1:58PM

    Its funny how we plan our lives out, set bounderies and goals to have someone just step in and make us say wow! Damn, there went some of my plans, now i need to change a few. But now it just might be a whole lot nicer than i had planed. We'll see just how good these new plans can be...… [more]


  • Lost a friend today

    Posted on: June 16th, 2011 at 3:58PM

      Its been an up and down day for me today. I lost a dear friend to Cancer this morning, he gave it everything he had but it was just too much for him this time. At least i can say hes no longer in pain and having to suffer through the treatments any longer. This was his third fight with the cancer and he fought each time hoping to beat it  and have more time with his family. I am just so tired of fighting it and watching most i have shared it with  pass on. I hate this damn disease and everything to do with it! Life really isn't't fair, looking around this room at the ones left still taking their treatments and realizing the ones not here ... at least aren't't suffering anymore. Makes you j… [more]