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Female , 16-17

im a 175cm (ish) tall female with long blonde hair, fair skin and green eyes. i suffer from depression and cant tell anybody outside the Experience Project

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Member Since Apr 11, 2011
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I Battle Depression

My Battle It all started a few years ago when I was the fat kid. I had just moved to a new school and the girl that was assigned to look after me for my first week at school had just dumped me on a bench and... [more]
  • I Battle Depression

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  • I Love Someone Who Doesn't Love Me Back

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  • I Hate Physics

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  • Friends Confessions

    leave me alone.. please
    i have been ignoring messages, calls and emails lateley in an attempt to get away from it all.. oh how i would love to just yell at everyone to **** off.. but that would only have more negative consequences than ignoring everybody already has..… [more]
  • hello..

    Posted on: April 11th, 2011 at 10:42PM

    i doubt anyone is going to want to read this but i thought it would help to write everything down. it might make me feel better about everything thats been going on and how nobody seems to care or want to know. i mean who wants to hang around a depressed person? nobody, thats who. so for the past few years ive been all smiles and a happy, bubbly person on the outside, when really i am dying inside. im scared that nobody will like me if i show them who i really am. its like being schizophrenic; to the world i am a happy care free person with no troubles, but on the inside im screaming, tearing myself up inside, and nobody can hear a thing.… [more]

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  • guilt.

    Posted on: August 7th, 2011 at 2:00AM

    thats all i ever seem to feel anymore. go to a party - feel guilty when i get home. eat anything - feel guilty. do anything - feel guilty.it feels like i cant do anything right. that im a screw up. a burden to this world.i dont know what to do..… [more]

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  • monsters

    Posted on: July 22nd, 2011 at 2:18AM

    theres monsters everywhere you know. invisible ones. always watching always waiting. those monsters know that i know. those monsters are after me..… [more]

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  • feeling the need for change

    Posted on: May 29th, 2011 at 6:02AM

    ive been wanting some 'major' (probably not what some of you would call major but major for me) changesand i think i can finally get it. after months of bugging the rents for double lobe piercings they (mum, dad wont know) have said yes. yes! woo!they also (just mum again) said yes to letting me dye the tips of my hair red! epic changes coming my wayso happy, cause theor usually strict about that kind of thing. they wouldnt even let me get my ears pierced normally till i was 14 and frown heavily upon unnatural colored hair dye, so its major for me.not that it would be for most who regularly upgrade their hair colour and piercing count.this teeny tiny thing has given me a huge buzzlater all w… [more]

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