Female , 51-55

When I see myself with out a mirror- I can be very beautiful, graceful, desirable, sexy, social, kindhearted, gentle, caring and so much more... 'Till I look into the mirror!
When I slide into my dark slippery hole- I become nothingness, lonely, unlovable, abnormally ugly, black sheep, evil, self-centered, loathing myself and cutting off anything hopeful to slide my way- I am alone. isolated. forgotten. damaged. avoided. Only my little dog stays with me, hers is a true love. my best friend.

Last Seen Jan 20, 2013
Member Since Mar 30, 2010
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