Female , 16-17
Feeling happy
i know im loved.

Psychotic, angry, selfish, happy, empty, tragically confused.

Last Seen Jul 12
Member Since Jan 11, 2013
Favorite Quote Accept and Embrace
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Vices anger
Horoscope Cancer
Special day 11-5
Books Winter Girls
Music loud- stuff like breaking benjamin
Movies the perks of being a wallflower
Local Time November 29th, 1:24 AM

I Have Been In a Mental Hospital

i was in two hospitals. first i went to a crisis hospital for trying to kill myself for the second known time. i made a few friends there. i also had the humiliating expereince of skin checks. thats... [more]
  • I Lost Someone To Suicide

    Jason Let Me Down Jason Scott Clucas- 1971-2005 if you ever see my father's tomb stone, that is what you will see. You won't see he killed himself. You won't see a clue as to why he did it. You won't see why he l… [more]
  • I Was Sexualy Abused

    Just Wondering, Not Sure. Too Embarrassed To Ask My Counselor. i have anxiety issues. people think i have been sexually abused. my mom has finally stopped asking me. my childhood is a blur. i remember that my mom had a lot of boyfriends, one of them would tickle … [more]
  • I Feel Empty Inside

    Four White Walls I remember when I cared, when I was always going, running. I had a place to be and a life that mattered. Now I have four white walls to call my own. I feel like I'm drifting through life. I keep wonde… [more]
  • I M Not Interested In Love At All Anymore I Have No Desire

    It Hurts So Much i met someone, and i love him. whether we were in love, ill never know. i know i care for him. the way i feel right now is awful. i wish i was dead, i hate feeling this way, i feel sick, twisted, and … [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    today im here
    no one gets me, i try to explain. i want to never wake up again. i wish i could sleep for a thousand years without time ever passing, i just need a long long break so i can catch up again. everyday is a nightmare. my actual bad dreams are like a party, a party that lasts for only so long. because they aren't real, to get lost in dream land i would give my life.… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    so lost
    i thought i was going to kill myself today, i really thought so. i dont know why. so when i called my little "support group" or whatever, i just wasn't sure what to say. i just kept talking and talking about the emptiness and anger and my father. they just reminded mt of my goals and how if i ever think i'm going to harm myself or worse to call them. i feel so miserable, sometimes i think i'm going to cry. sometimes i just can't breathe. everyone can see that something isn't right, but i can't say anything. i feel so lost and empty. i don't even know how to get back to the path i want to follow.… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    And how is cutting bad exactly?
    I really don't understand it. People say cutting doesn't help. They say that you shouldn't cut because it doesn't solve anything. They say that you should snap your wrist with a rubber band so you don't cut. But how is snapping your wrist different from cutting? You are still hurting yourself! And the problem that made you want to cut in the first place is still there! I know it's possible to die from cutting, but you can also die from walking around town, going outside at night, and even going hunting. But those people aren't sent to counseling because they do those things. I know people say cutting means there is an underlying issue, but if so, why do people just focus on the cutting? If t… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    I am A Cutter.
    It's pretty self explanatory. I cut and I love it. Nothing makes me feel so invincible, the beauty of each blood drop is overwhelming. I feel energized. I will never let it go, I don't care who knows anymore or who tells me stop. I am not liable to their feels, I am not liable to their judgments, so they can suck it up. The easiest razor to break and use is the Bic brand. Their cheap but their blades are still sharp, but if I don't have a Bic  I take another shaver and use a lighter to melt the plaster around it. The plastic that separates me from my beautiful endorphin release. Now what else do I have to spill about the matter... Oh. The first time it worked, when I felt actually energy pul… [more]
  • My Progress

    Posted on: February 28th, 2013 at 1:20PM

    I cut, I love everything about it. But I want to stop for God. This will be my progress blog, the longer I go without cutting, the more of a victory this is. So this is me staring over on my progress since I cut yesterday.Days without cutting: 1My mood: extremely empty totally and completely… [more]