Female , 41-45

Ecclectic, eccentric, friendly, cat lover, encouraging, loyal, honest, spontaneous and fun-loving. Poet, artist, writer, musician, candlemaker. Slightly impulsive, unpredictable, contemplative, introspective, deep, sometimes whimsical.Sexy and very passionate.:)

Last Seen Sep 14, 2012
Member Since Oct 09, 2011
Favorite Quote Be yourself relentlessly, Sartre
  • a little Egyptian
  • and a little French
  • and a little Greek
  • and a little Italian
  • and a little Irish
  • and a little American Indian
  • and a little Turkish
Vices stealing cigarettes from my fiance, impulsive, possessive
Politics Very Conservative
Horoscope Scorpio
Special day 12-16
Books The French Lieutenant's Woman, A Separate Peace, Resurrection, War and Peace, Crime and Punishment, anything by ann Tyler or Carson McCullers, all plays by Tennessee Williams, poems of Baudelaire, etc
Music Carol King, Rod Stewart, Pearl Jam, New Order, The Smiths, The Drums, The Beach Fossils, Hess is More, Vivaldi
Movies The Diving Ball and the Butterfly, Basquiat, Runaway Train, Grave of the Fireflies,Taxi Driver, Das Boot, Reds, Cinema Paradiso, My Life as a Dog, etc.
Local Time April 18th, 3:16 AM

I When I Was A Kid We Actually Went Outside And Played

We Played Until We Dropped When I was a kid we played all day from daybreak to sundown and a few minutes after. WE picked mulberries and stained our shirts, ran around barefoot getting dandelions stuck between our toes, had mud... [more]
TolstoiFan has shared 13 Mature Experiences
  • I Am a Scorpio

    Typical Scorpio Woman Some people think Scorpios are control freaks and many of the profiles I read say this. It is not true. Scorpios don't want to control anyone and they hate being controlled. We tend to isolate alot. … [more]
  • I Want to Quit Smoking

    I'm A Chain Smoker I never smoked in my life until my husband of 13 years kicked me out of the house. I started just puffing on Lucky Strikes every now and then. I ended up moving up to live with my mom and her husband,… [more]
  • I Can't Dance

    I Can't Dance In Front Of Other People... A few years ago I had this subtle sexy way of dancing and sang Kareoke in a bar. I came up here to live with my mother and she laughed at me when I demonstrated. This is dumb, but she really got to me… [more]
  • I Believe All Things Are Possible With God

    God Restores The Years The Locusts Have Eaten! My faith has been restored tonight. I serve a mighty God! I believe in what He said in the Bible. He said He heals all our diseases and I know He will heal mine. He is able to heal me after 25 years. … [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Long standing crush
    I've had a crush on Rod Stewart since the 1970's.LOL!!!… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    Tired of living
    I have been trying to keep a stiff upper lip but life has gotten me down. I'm tired of it. Tired of being tired. Tired of being so sick. Tired of praying for energy or health only to get another disease. Tired of praying for funds to live , to do the basics, only to suffer more lack. I'm too tired and in pain to clean my house and do not have enough money to pay anyone else to do it. So I'm confined to living in filth. I hate it. There was a time when I kept an immaculate house and garden, did all the yard work myself, planted trees, fed the goats and chickens, did canning, etc. etc. I am only 45 years old but I feel like I am 95. I wish God would just take my life already. I had a sleep stu… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    thinking of bariatric surgery
    I gained weight on the prescription drug Seroquel. I tried so hard to accept myself the way I am now but really I hate it. I hate being fat. I learned to dress well for my new size but I still hate it. I mentioned bariatrick surgery to my psychologist and primary care physician and they agree it would be a good idea. I look forward to being thin again and liking myself. I'd also like to rid myself of all the people who think it is their business to comment on my weight.. People can be so mean.… [more]