Female , 16-17
bad decisions and ruined choices
I'm not even sure what I'm doing on this, since, Hell, I have school.
Yes, my situation makes me feel sick, but all I can say is that, if it's what you want, i'll do whatever I can to make you smile.
Last Seen May 10
Member Since Jan 05, 2012
Favorite Quote I ... toyed with the idea of going to find another war where I could at least feel alive. I was so numb that it took terror to make me feel anything.
- a little English
Books Fiction, that's good enough for me to lose myself in.
Music Anything with a soul....rock, usually.
Movies I try to steer away from sobering films, but I love them
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Writing Is...me. I love writing. Allowing you're emotions to flow into a story without others even knowing it. I tend to write fiction, because it's easier on my mind and allows me to soften some of the harshness of m… [more]
I Don't Know Where Mine Went. I don't know what the word family really means anymore..no, I know what it would say in the dictionary, but I mean the feeling. That feeling that I'm sure is so important. So damn important but … [more]
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Please. I'm not going to say this is always the case....but, then again, I think if I died now. Right now. I wouldn't care. Then again, I have not cared, about anything and everything for some would say… [more]
I WANT TO SCREAMPUNCH SOMETHINGLet me feel the painHit meSlap mePunch me right in the gutI don't carelet me feel itthe hatred running through youpumps in my bloodthe anger the pain the hurtboiling bubbling grr making me want to explode with emotionnumb are my nervesexcept when it comes to the dark, deep, disgusting emotionsthey rock through me with no hesitation need to stopon and onnothing I can dobut ride it outso my teeth are gritted my knuckles crakcedand all I can dois see my vision go blurry as it rips through me… [more]
I can't sleepI don't why in tellng you because you don't give damn all and neither do I if I'm honest The ever pressing darkness i stare into can to to hell The hot sweat that flushes my body as I blink away the images that scar my mind I'm thirsty and tired But awake and wired at the same time I hate sleeping because it hates me I only ever beg for it when I have to When it's cruel hands bring me to is knees I'm forever lost from rest. What does that even mean When I do ever sleep, I do not rest. Rest is foreign to me I'm just so tried! My eyes burn with the need of enclosing them in my eyelids Please Please Let me sleep Dawn will be here all too soon and my blood streaked up will crave death… [more]
My head is spinningI feel emotionally and physically insane too many thoughts not enough time music with meaning thy overwhelms you to the extent the emotions are too loud to feel. I'm running from the sleep that never comes yet praying to a god I don't believe about how much I want the lights in my brain to turn out whether that's for ever I'm too fast to approach. I can't use a knife so I'll use my nails I'm too intelligent about my moves to be insane yet my actions are made by insane thoughts If your going to do me over Do it now If you think I need help Help isn't enough If you don't give a damn That becomes a problem when you feel like that about everyone but I do it anyway because because I know no… [more]
mmim 15 yet i feel older but when i remember im 15 it surprises me as i still think im 14i think i only feel older because im horny a lot of the time which sucks because i don't have a boyfriend because i don't really want one and when it comes to face to face boys un less im a little drunk im not frigid but unable? yet at home and in my dreams and nightmares im as dirty as everfor god sake… [more]