Male , 46-50
Feeling calm
Just another day off

Confident, yet reserved; self-assured, yet open to growth; focussed, but relaxed; literate, yet not very well read; strong, but really sensitive too

Last Seen 1 day ago
Member Since Feb 27, 2009
Favorite Quote The real questions about love hover somewhere between rational evaluation and chemically mediated lunacy. -- Gordon Livingston M.D.
  • a little Norwegian
  • and a little American
  • and 100% Canadian
Vices Somewhat envious, too obsessive, and too damned hard on myself
Politics Liberal
Horoscope Taurus
Special day 4-25
Books A Terrible Beauty, Lonesome Dove, East of Eden, Cloudstreet, Shake Hands With The Devil, Fools Die
Music Rush, KISS, Sensualists, Sigur Ros, Duran Duran, The Crystal Method, Brian Eno, October Project, Katy Perry, 54-40 (the essential collection), Parachute Club
Movies Lincoln, Taming of The Shrew,An Unfinished Life, No Country For Old Men, Slapshot, The Shawshank Redemption, Driving Miss Daisy, Lean On Me, The Kings Speech, Avengers, Philadelphia, Star Trek movies
Local Time June 1st, 7:42 PM

I Have a Confession

So I just became nearly the 900th member of the group "I Love Braless Girls."  I'm a guy, so of course I do.  Then I thought "what if they aren't braless?  Do I love them any less?"  The answer... [more]
UnderEli has shared 86 Mature Experiences
  • I Will Love You More Tomorrow Than Today

    Love Must Not Be Forgotten, a short story The following is a short story, from the translated collection The Vintage Book of Contemporary Chinese Fiction, Copyright 1998.  In Great Britain it was published as The Picador Book of Contempo… [more]
  • I Got Spanked As a Kid

    An Acceptable Means Of Discipline When I Grew Up A spanking for me only happened when all else had failed.  Once I'd grown up, mom admitted how she always felt bad after administering a spanking.  She didn't want to be cruel, but it reached a… [more]
  • I Like to Share Romantic Excerpts

    I Love This Short Romantic Passage I used to record a lot of passages from books, but rarely any more.  There would be too many.  When I do come across a profound passage, however, I still take note.  Here's one I fou… [more]
  • I Have a Mom With Depression

    She Drives Me Crazy I've known my mom's had depresion since my early teens, at least.  She had her first major breakdown, apparently, when she was eighteen, one year before I was born.  It hasn't … [more]
  • Oh . . . My Child Support payment woes!!

    Posted on: September 4th, 2009 at 7:10PM

    Good heavens! I just got to post this, to get it off my chest and out of my system. I've been very concerned and depressed lately over child support payments I've been unable to make since being laid off at the end of June. I've kept in touch with the Family Maintenance Enforcement Program, and I've submitted all of the documents required at court to have the current court order changed. Since before I was laid off, however, it feels like I've been hounded to make the same payments I've provided since June, 2007. The amount of child support I provide per month is based upon the income I made at that time. The only months I haven't made my child support payments were December, 2008 and… [more]


  • Broken hearted again

    Posted on: September 6th, 2010 at 11:03PM

    I should have known better than to let myself feel for Jade again. The results are the same as before. She is not interested, and I am left hurting so much because a woman I consider so beautiful and charming and nice to be with finds me lacking. I accept that that's the way it goes. Someone will either find you attractive or not. But if they don't, wild horses and a winning lottery ticket will not change their mind. Whatever it is about me that won't let me shine in her eyes is something I cannot fix or overcome. It just isn't there. I will not blame her. She has her own values and things she finds important in a man, which I just don't have. There's no right or wrong to this. Sh… [more]


  • At the second-hand record store

    Posted on: December 2nd, 2011 at 2:47PM

    Yesterday I was at a second-hand record store.  I was tempted by so much, but with Christmas coming up figured I'd be better off saving my money and making a wish instead. As I was leaving, outside I passed the $1.00 bargain bin.  Even here, I discovered a compilation of disco themed tunes, like Superman, 2001, and Close Encounters of the Third Kind.  It was only $1.00!!  Before I bought it, though, I figured I'd better buy a tuner and new needle for my record player first.  My mood: pretty accomplished… [more]


  • I get so flustered

    Posted on: June 17th, 2010 at 10:13PM

    I should just relax and not think about this. Over the past few weeks I've been getting to know a woman whom I met in a three week employment training workshop. Quite by accident we ended up being paired together based on similarities in our personality profiles. She seemed nice, so a few days later I decided to ask her out to coffee. Rather than using the usual, awkward verbal approach, I spent a while the night before drawing a note, which asked her in large, block letters if she'd like to go for coffee, and providing three check boxes for an answer: yes, maybe -- let me think about it, and thanks but no thanks. A couple hours after class had begun the next day, when our facilitator… [more]