Male , 46-50
Feeling calm
I'd rather be wroking today. But, it's a bright, summer day, I have two fans on in my place, and cold water to drink.

Confident, yet reserved; self-assured, yet open to growth; focussed, but relaxed; literate, yet not very well read; strong, but really sensitive too

Last Seen 5 days ago
Member Since Feb 27, 2009
Favorite Quote The real questions about love hover somewhere between rational evaluation and chemically mediated lunacy. -- Gordon Livingston M.D.
  • a little Norwegian
  • and a little American
  • and 100% Canadian
Vices Somewhat envious, too obsessive, and too damned hard on myself
Politics Liberal
Horoscope Taurus
Special day 4-25
Books A Terrible Beauty, Lonesome Dove, East of Eden, Cloudstreet, Shake Hands With The Devil, Fools Die
Music Rush, KISS, Sensualists, Sigur Ros, Duran Duran, The Crystal Method, Brian Eno, October Project, Katy Perry, 54-40 (the essential collection), Parachute Club
Movies Lincoln, Taming of The Shrew,An Unfinished Life, No Country For Old Men, Slapshot, The Shawshank Redemption, Driving Miss Daisy, Lean On Me, The Kings Speech, Avengers, Philadelphia, Star Trek movies
Local Time May 3rd, 4:17 PM

I Sometimes Go a Little Crazy

During the long genesis of human-kind it’s somewhat of a mass understatement to say that men have gone to outrageous lengths to gain the affections of a female. (Women have done the same to get a... [more]
UnderEli has shared 86 Mature Experiences
  • I Will Love You More Tomorrow Than Today

    Love Must Not Be Forgotten, a short story The following is a short story, from the translated collection The Vintage Book of Contemporary Chinese Fiction, Copyright 1998.  In Great Britain it was published as The Picador Book of Contempo… [more]
  • I Got Spanked As a Kid

    An Acceptable Means Of Discipline When I Grew Up A spanking for me only happened when all else had failed.  Once I'd grown up, mom admitted how she always felt bad after administering a spanking.  She didn't want to be cruel, but it reached a… [more]
  • I Like to Share Romantic Excerpts

    I Love This Short Romantic Passage I used to record a lot of passages from books, but rarely any more.  There would be too many.  When I do come across a profound passage, however, I still take note.  Here's one I fou… [more]
  • I Have a Mom With Depression

    She Drives Me Crazy I've known my mom's had depresion since my early teens, at least.  She had her first major breakdown, apparently, when she was eighteen, one year before I was born.  It hasn't … [more]
  • Other Confessions

    You can get it off your chest, but it doesn't matter one way or the other
    So I just became nearly the 900th member of the group "I Love Braless Girls."  I'm a guy, so of course I do.  Then I thought "what if they aren't braless?  Do I love them any less?"  The answer, of course, is no.  I just want the eye-candy.  I went through the same internal dialogue after joining the group "I Love Women Who Don't Wear Underwear," or something like that.  So, let me just set the record stright:  it doesn't matter if you do or don't wear panties and / or a bra.  I'd love you either way.  Just be yourself and do what feels right for you.  That's how i'll love you the most.… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    I've been wondering if I should take a chance at an on-line relationship here in E.P.
    I stumbled upon Experience Project approximately eighteen months ago. After a week or two of getting used to the site a few things occurred to me. One was how this web-site could become prone to abuse by perverts and people who would take advantage of other member's good and honest natures. I'd come across and heard about this happening around the internet. And, indeed, I've had my share of run-ins with pervs here too. It's just like normal life, I guess. You come across one now and again, regardless of how well you try to guard against it. Another thing I found interesting and wondered about was communicating and becoming friends with other people here. Until I created my profile he… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Me and my foolish heart
    I took a chance today. I'd been fond of a woman I met recently in a career enhancement class. I did the typical male thing of taking an interest in her early on, instead of being patient. I asked her for coffee one day, which she accepted with a bit of what I took to be healthy insecurity. We got along very well in class after that, talking a lot and working side-by-side on a group project. She phoned me one night over her nervousness of going for a job interview, and I reassured her it would be okay. A few days later she began phoning me on a regular basis, once every evening, just to visit. She knew I liked her. I paid a fair amount of attention to her, which she took in stride an… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    The little things around my apartment that haven't been done
    I have been a very bad bachelor of late.  I haven't washed my dishes, cleaned my apartment, or read the mail (which is almost entirely circulars) for weeks.  Instead, I've been enjoying my time eating ice cream, riding my bicycle, watching T.V., and whiling away the hours at my computer.  I have done some essentials, though, like the laundry and grocery shopping and going to work.  Sometimes it feels like life is too short to not just do what feels right and forget the rest.  Problem is I have so many day befores of doing the same thing. … [more]
  • Oh . . . My Child Support payment woes!!

    Posted on: September 4th, 2009 at 7:10PM

    Good heavens! I just got to post this, to get it off my chest and out of my system. I've been very concerned and depressed lately over child support payments I've been unable to make since being laid off at the end of June. I've kept in touch with the Family Maintenance Enforcement Program, and I've submitted all of the documents required at court to have the current court order changed. Since before I was laid off, however, it feels like I've been hounded to make the same payments I've provided since June, 2007. The amount of child support I provide per month is based upon the income I made at that time. The only months I haven't made my child support payments were December, 2008 and… [more]


  • Broken hearted again

    Posted on: September 6th, 2010 at 11:03PM

    I should have known better than to let myself feel for Jade again. The results are the same as before. She is not interested, and I am left hurting so much because a woman I consider so beautiful and charming and nice to be with finds me lacking. I accept that that's the way it goes. Someone will either find you attractive or not. But if they don't, wild horses and a winning lottery ticket will not change their mind. Whatever it is about me that won't let me shine in her eyes is something I cannot fix or overcome. It just isn't there. I will not blame her. She has her own values and things she finds important in a man, which I just don't have. There's no right or wrong to this. Sh… [more]


  • At the second-hand record store

    Posted on: December 2nd, 2011 at 2:47PM

    Yesterday I was at a second-hand record store.  I was tempted by so much, but with Christmas coming up figured I'd be better off saving my money and making a wish instead. As I was leaving, outside I passed the $1.00 bargain bin.  Even here, I discovered a compilation of disco themed tunes, like Superman, 2001, and Close Encounters of the Third Kind.  It was only $1.00!!  Before I bought it, though, I figured I'd better buy a tuner and new needle for my record player first.  My mood: pretty accomplished… [more]


  • I get so flustered

    Posted on: June 17th, 2010 at 10:13PM

    I should just relax and not think about this. Over the past few weeks I've been getting to know a woman whom I met in a three week employment training workshop. Quite by accident we ended up being paired together based on similarities in our personality profiles. She seemed nice, so a few days later I decided to ask her out to coffee. Rather than using the usual, awkward verbal approach, I spent a while the night before drawing a note, which asked her in large, block letters if she'd like to go for coffee, and providing three check boxes for an answer: yes, maybe -- let me think about it, and thanks but no thanks. A couple hours after class had begun the next day, when our facilitator… [more]