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Female , 18-21
NB Canada

Shy and outgoing, scared and bold, alive and dead, neat and messy, quiet and loud, scared and unafraid, sane and crazy, I am an oxymoron

And by the way, I'm 14

Last Seen Jun 1, 2013
Member Since May 10, 2011
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  • 100% Canadian
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Horoscope Virgo
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Books By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead
Music Lady Gaga, Theory of a Deadman, Nickelback, Five Finger Death Punch, Disturbed, Ke$ha, Pitbull, Your Favorite Martian, Bullet For My Valentine, etc.
Movies Dirty Dancing, Easy A
Local Time July 31st, 2:02 PM

I Am Very Secretive

101 Things You Should Know 1. I'm a girl, I was born a girl, and I plan upon staying that way 2. my favourite movie of all time is The Lion King, but I say my favourite is Dirty Dancing to other people 3. I think... [more]
Veronica4 has shared 6 Mature Experiences
  • I Am a Sister

    A Sister's Job Description -Must be tolerant -Must have a huge heart -Must be able to take some verbal and physical abuse -If younger, must be at leats a little annoying -If older, must be able to do mak… [more]
  • I Hate Menstrual Cramps

    Just Tear Out My Uterus. Please, just do it. I won't blame you, I will thank you. If I have to suffer another moment of this, I may do it myself. So just take me out of my misery. NOW!! … [more]
  • I Often Eat Way Too Much, Then Feel Guilty About It

    Eating My Pain Away It's not a food addiction. I don't think that food is love. Food is just constant, and it soothes my inner wounds whe nnothing else can. Even though I feel guilty after eating, and sometimes try to th… [more]
  • I Am Afraid to Say "I Love You"

    Three Words, Three Syllables, Eight Letters, And A Million Different Meanings Well I have awful experiences with those three words. People who say them and don't mean them. People who don't say it to me enough. People who want me to say it when I don't want to. People who just … [more]
  • Other Confessions

    It Makes Me Feel Dirty..
    Every once in a while.. I start thinking about her and I can't stop. What her hands would feel like running all over me. What her lips would feel like on mine. What she would do to me if there was no one else around and we had a king bed all to ourselves... What her soft skin would feel like against mine.. Sometimes it's not her it's him. Whether he would be rough or gentle. Somehow I think it would be somewhere's in between. I want to do unspeakable things to him to make him moan, and it makes me feel dirty.… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    My Current Playlist
    Animal I Have Become-Three Days Grace Bad Company- Five Finger Death Punch Bring Me To Life- Evanescence Broken- Seether feat. Amy Lee Decode- Paramore For You I Will- Teddy Geiger ******' Perfect- P!nk Gorgeous Nightmare- Escape The Fate The Guillotine- Escape The Fate Haunted- Disturbed Heart Don't Break Even- The script I'd Come For You- Nickelback Ignorance- Paramore The Last Night- Skillet Let The Flames Begin- Paramore My Heart- Paramore My Immortal- Evanescence Never Let This Go-Paramore Stop This Song (Lovesick Melody) -Paramore Sunday, Bloody Sunday- Paramore Through Glass- Stone Sour We Are Broken- Paramore This playlist matches my current mood which is to confusing to describe … [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    Sometimes..
    Sometimes.. It's like I can barely bear it. I just.. want to make you happy.. But it seems my defintion of making a man happy and yours are completely different. But I've never outright said "I want you" but should I have to? What are you, gay? Or am I just not good enough for you... I don't know..… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Confusion #4
    Part 4 in the chronicles about my confusion revovlving mainly around the inner love/hate relationship I'm currently having wiht my boyfriend, today.. it feels like love. Well the ignoring part has stopped... Sort of... I think he just gets nervous around his mom :P But the other night I had a dream that I married him in an absolutely beautiful wedding ceremony. Like my dream wedding.. With purple lilacs and tiger lilies EVERYWHERE and all my best friends as bride's maids and everyone I know watching. I wore the perfect dress, a princess style kind of poofy dress with silk ribbons around my waist in purple and orange to match the flowers in my bouquet, tiger lilies, lupins, baby's breath, … [more]
  • Bastards....

    Posted on: September 29th, 2011 at 4:41PM

    Kiss my indecisive asscrack you uncaring, unfeeling, unknowing neanderthals. If yyou've got to ask the Wizard for something, I don't think you'll be able to choose between a brain, a heart, or a soul.Grow up!!!! Legitimately, if your age was based on your actual maturity, and not the number of years you have wasted space on this planet with your existence, you would all still technically in diapers.Get your own lives and stop messing up mine, and making mine a living hell. You have no idea what it's like for people to tkae it upon themselves as their duty to torture you. If YOU were ME for ten ******* seconds you would realize just how big an ******* you all truly are.You need a reality chec… [more]

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  • I Am A Freak.

    Posted on: October 9th, 2011 at 5:13PM

    Well. I guess in a general sense, I am a freak. But the freakiest bit of me, well that's what's been acting up lately.I can't find her. Me. The original part. I can't find her. She usually comes back, within a day or two. But she hasn't. I don't know where she is. I usuallly don't get this desperate, but she has left me no choice. I'm eating. A LOT. Because eating disgusts her, and she usually comes out to ***** as soon as the spoon is in my hand. But she's not making her apperance to tempt the finger down my throat. So I'm worried. We're kind of two halves of a whole. She keeps me grounded, she tells me when what I do is wrong. And I have all the fun. But how am I supposed to go on without … [more]

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  • Expect The Unexpected I Suppose

    Posted on: September 1st, 2011 at 6:27PM

    Well. I told him. My boy. The one I thought wouldn't understand anything about my cutting or depression etc. etc.He did. I told hi because  had no one else to talk to about it at the time, so I just completely spilled. I told him about cutting, my food issues, stealing booze to numb the pain, and my depression. He didn't ask why, he didn't press me to tell him any more than I was offering up. All he said was, "Babe, I love you, and all I want is for you to be happy. Please don't do this stuff to yourself. Think about every time you cut your wrist, it's like cutting mine too. Dom't do this, please." He also asked to see the scars and I said no because it makes me feel like dirt. But he is the… [more]

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  • Just For Once...

    Posted on: August 16th, 2011 at 10:22AM

    Just for once, I wish everyhing would stay calm and quiet and just stay the way it is.We are talking every day, for hours on end. My ex-boyfriend and I. We talk about anything and everything, we flirt hardcore with each other. And yesterday, the question came up of whether or not he liked anyone else. He Said, yeah a little bit. And I asked him who? It took me a half hour to convince him to tell me. He sort of likes this other girl, let's call her J. I know her somewhat, but she's mostly just friends with my younger sister. So I said "How much do you like her?" he said "Well, I just sorta like her" So I asked "More than me?" He said "Never" So I said "Well if you want to date her, go ahead. … [more]

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