I'm quiet and shy on the outside, but a boiling pot of tar and rage on the inside. Someday I'll blow up and be myself, right?

Last Seen May 19, 2012
Member Since Feb 07, 2011
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  • 100% American
Vices sloth, starvation, moodiness, procrastination
Politics Liberal
Horoscope Sagittarius
Special day
Books Bridget Jones,Howl's Moving Castle, Yu Yu Hakusho, Brave New World, Kafka on the Shore, pop-ups, Tao of Pooh, Te of Piglet, A Little Princess, Mars, Ironside, Out of the Dust
Music Alternative, Kpop, metal, new wave, classical, experimental, hip-hop, rap, jazz...
Movies Miyazaki films, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Pan's Labyrinth, The Secret of Kells, Memoirs of a Geisha, Exit Through the Gift Shop
Local Time May 22nd, 5:34 PM

I Like to Drop Out of Sight Sometimes

Socially Lazy I know I'm socially lazy and it's liberating to stay away from everyone else because I don't have to worry. I worry about offending people, looking stupid or frumpy or sad, or just being plain awkward... [more]
Victrolashortshorts has shared 1 Mature Experience
  • I Want to Help the Honey Bees

    I Do I Do! But I don't know how to help the honey bees. Maybe this group will give me some pointers? :D… [more]
  • I Am A Horrible Conversationalist

    Debbie Downers Unite I was just told this today after giving said person a hug. I focus on the negative too much, and if you do too, I'm sorry for you. We have to start thinking positive or our only friends will be people… [more]
  • I Am In Love With Shinee

    Lol You Guys Are Cute ....yup. Looking for good dance tutorials for "Lucifer"! The best one I found was Pania Dance Team. They actually count slowly and show the moves mirrored instead of just slowing down a video :) Good … [more]
  • I Love Listening to Nine Inch Nails

    In My Lucky Clutches I'd only heard of the band vaguely, but then The Downward Spiral showed up in my library bookstore where I work. I bought it and fell in love <3… [more]
  • School Confessions

    Being an artist over being something "practical"
    I'm good at what I'm doing; my professors almost always bring attention to my work in design class and typography. But being a graphic designer is too scary, and being a fine artist even scarier. I'm changing paths to an English major and am going to get teaching credentials to teach high school. I hope with the gaps of vacation time I can keep drawing and painting, possibly publishing under a pen name.I'm so confused right now, and I really don't know who to go to or how to cope healthily with this.… [more]
  • School Confessions

    Almost a Year Clean
    I cut again today. It was so easy, too. Last time I had a crappy craft knife, but this time all I had to do was drag the exacto blade and I--finished.I failed two classes last semester. I think my hopes of transferring to a 4-year university are crumbled to pieces. Even then, where was I going to get with a graphic design major? I've set myself up for failure; I'll be working retail the rest of my life.I want to finish. I'm just existing now, I don't know how to live properly anymore. I just want to finish now, I don't think I'll be able to fix this.… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    My Body and Mind are arguing
    I should do a lot of things, but I sit here and feel bad for myself and rant on the internet late at night. How many other people do this? Probably a lot. I have no goal in college right now. I'm moving on autopilot and my general state is quiet and depressed. I either can't pick myself up, or am too lazy to pick myself up. I guess I don't know how to pick myself up. Happy pills sounds like a dream sometimes, but I hate taking any form of medication. I don't want to rely on pills to exist. I still hate myself.… [more]
  • Hey new stuff! This site is too much

    Posted on: February 13th, 2011 at 2:19AM

    Whats stuck in my head right now: want to blog something interesting :| I cannot think of anything that people would want to read. Beside ****, I'm not blogging that -___- Or bad jokes.Guess what, I'm another depressive on ep! YEAH.Hey, people who became fans of me, why'd you do that? I'm afraid to add you because I don't know you. If you read this, introduce yourself!The song changed:… [more]