Female , 22-25
Feeling depressed
I came to the realization that I'm a terrible person ...and I don't know how to deal with it.

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Member Since Sep 22, 2011
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Special day 10-3
Local Time May 27th, 4:14 PM

I Have a Confession

   I'm a pathetic loser, and its all my fault. I've ruined my life, and now I'm trying to fix it, but I'm not doing that great of a job. I have no friends, and no one will ever love me because I'm a... [more]
WanderingKitten313 has shared 4 Mature Experiences
  • I Hate Myself

    I Don't Know Why I Even Bother...    Its hard enough as it is to get out of bed every morning knowing that this is my life. This is what I've made it into with all of the countless screw ups and what not. Despite my efforts, it seem… [more]
  • I Miss Someone I've Never Met

    In Love With A Text Message...    Its been over a year that I've been committing myself to someone I met online. I know that sounds stupid, and I thought so too and was totally against that sort of time until I spent so much time… [more]
  • I Hate Myself

    I Don't Know Whats So Wrong With Me...    I'm in college, finishing this GED program because I screwed up so bad in high school and had to drop out. Since then, I've just screwed up everything. I've barely managed to scrape through by th… [more]
  • I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

    What Is Wrong With Me...i Think I'm Going Crazy Or Something....     So last night I couldn't sleep because I had this overwhelming feeling of horrified paranoia all night long that I just couldn't seem to get over. So I called my boyfriend and as silly as this s… [more]
  • "Yeah, your right, you are crazy. But you'll find is everyone else."

    Posted on: October 19th, 2011 at 11:14PM

       So, over the last few weeks, actually the last month even, I've been drifting further and further away from one of the only people I talk to in the world. Despite that its almost entirely just through text because they don't have room in their life or time to stop and give me a call or get on skype for a few minutes. I do understand though. I do have this one friend that I spend time with from time to time. What sets him apart and makes him more unique than the others is that he is the most observant person I've ever met. He has the unique ability to read anyone, and just completely figure them out within minutes. Without ever talking to them. Just by watching them. Now I don't know if I'… [more]


  • AHHHHHH I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!! (Insert attention grabber)

    Posted on: December 2nd, 2012 at 1:20AM

       What happens when you know what to do, but you can't bring yourself to do it? In my case, I know what I should do, but I can't do it. I don't know why. I can see what my situation would look like from the outside looking in. If I were someone else, hearing the things I'd be telling them, I'd pity me. I'd be telling myself how stupid I was being and the obvious thing to do to make myself happy. To make everything better and help myself. The problem in this is that the way to make myself happy, involves making a decision that shouldn't be hard at all, but in fact is incredibly hard for me to make. Why? I don't really know. Maybe because it involves making a decision of who I want in my life… [more]


  • Whats wrong with me? Why can't I get over this?

    Posted on: November 13th, 2011 at 2:43AM

    I feeling the heavy weight of depression weighing down on my shoulders again. But...I don't know. I just...can't get over it. I can't shake it. It feels like a sickness you can't get rid of, or like something heavy that you can't push off of you. I mean...I'm trying to tell myself that I don't care about my situation. That I have no friends, no one who wants to even talk to me let alone spend any time around me. Not even family really. The person whos making all these promises to me and telling they want to be with me and all this other bullshit is just...making me feel worse and worse. I'm starting to hate him. I've lost so much respect for him. Most of the time I don't even want to hear fr… [more]


  • Birthday Curse

    Posted on: October 3rd, 2011 at 6:11PM

       Now this sounds a little silly, but I swear, I'm like cursed or something. Every year on my actual birth day, a lot of bad things happen in a row. It doesn't usually last all day, but enough to make a bad birthday. For my last birthday I ended up doing what others wanted to celebrate just to keep from all the argument and what not. Then towards the end of the day, I got sick and ended up having a horrible case of the flu. The year before that, my family started a huge argument about how poorly I was doing in school and really got down on me about it, and I felt so bad that I cried and went and hid at my then boyfriend's house where I drank until I got sleepy. This year, the day started ou… [more]