Female , 18-21
Feeling lonely
I wish I had, a horse's head, a tiger's heart, an apple bed.

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I Am Finally Finding My Way Back

Let's see, well, if you've ever read anything I've previously written on this site you'll probably realize I get extremely depressed, I'm deeply obsessive, jealous and I'm a little crazy.. I haven't... [more]
  • I Am Crazy

    A Small Lonely Island A girl, a land consisting of two identities, she is the product of a crazy mother and a loveless father. As a small girl her only comforts are that of nature, art and her own thoughts, she created vas… [more]
  • I Monsters

    Don't Be Afraid You see these terrifying beasts in the corner of your eye, there they are again looking at you, watching you. Have you ever considered that perhaps they are not as scary as you think, like a spider th… [more]
  • I Believe In Exit Points As Portals To Another Realm Of Life

    Portals All around the world there is a network of roads, paths, rivers and train tracks etc all very ordinary and not really thought about, but on occasion there is an occurrence, the holes. The ground colla… [more]
  • I Monsters

    Bad Or Good Decision? I've given up AS Level English Literature to do Computing seven weeks in. I find my lessons tedious and difficult so hopefully this is a good decision.. will have to see. All I know is... it's revisio… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    Help me
    I want to die. I want things in life that I can't have, I know ways that I might achieve them but I can't make myself change. I want a person, a very difficult guy, he's so very different and I want him but I'm all wrong. I'm not the person I know I should be, I know what I should look like, what I should be like but then I look in the mirror and all the signs that I've given up are written all over me.  I want to be healthy, I want to love and be loved again, I want to do well in my work and be successful but I'm so unhappy. I feel like there's a rot inside me, if souls exist I think mine would be corrupted and broken. I carry the weight of emptiness and I'm growing weak, wearing thin.  I i… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    I am in love with someone I can't have and it's killing me. I just layed in a searing hot bath for 3-4 hours, I was crying until I eventually passed out. I woke up pruny and numb, I was surprised that I didn't drown, I cried again for a while, I tried to scream but no sound came out of me.. when I eventually managed to get out I nearly passed out again, my vision went dark and I had to hold myself up. I slowly walked upstairs, stared at a blank wall for a while, then opened my laptop, wrote a suicide note while listening to Sparkle horse. I feel so weak but I'm coming out of this state. I believe I am bipolar, I appear to others a non-emotional person but when I am alone, it washes over me l… [more]
  • Time to help myself

    Posted on: November 2nd, 2013 at 7:28PM

    If you've read my confession you'll know I've given up, this is me making a stand now. I am unhappy because I had a bad childhood and lost the man I love and because of this unhappiness I have indulged myself. It all shows. I am giving up alcohol, smoking, caffeine, meat, unhealthy foods. I will be sleeping 9 hours a night and exercising everyday. I will also talk to a councilor.  I am going completely cold turkey until I am healthy again. I hope that in giving up all these bad habits and having a healthier lifestyle I will feel happier. I might feel able to move on and be happy with someone new. I have a goal.  -I have sucessfully given up meat and smoking permenantly, I get 8 hours sleep e… [more]


  • Alternative dimensions

    Posted on: July 21st, 2013 at 9:09AM

    I think that there is more than just these universes and space and humans. I am not religious whatsoever so don't think this is about heaven or hell, what I believe is beyond that, it is limitless, the idea that there may be edges to space or that there are limits to even the unknown scares me, there is more. We are mere animals, meat suits, what happens on this earth, in our lives is meaningless, I think that when you die you will turn in to something else, something we can't even contemplate, entities, power, energy. There are countless places and unimaginable power, perhaps there will always be a sense of good and evil but then again maybe not, I am not afraid to die because I believe the… [more]