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Female , 18-21
Wellington New Zealand
A week to live :)

Im a 18 year old girl whos been through a hell of alot. I had an EP account for 3 or more years but I lost it. I am here for anyone who needs it. Demi Lovato saved my life. I dont like labels but if I had to, cutter, bulimic, prescription pill addict, LOVATIC. Message me for anything.

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Member Since Nov 10, 2012
Favorite Quote Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect.
Heritage
  • a little New Zealander
Vices My guitar. Piano. Singing. Coconut Chocolate.
Politics Anarchist
Horoscope Virgo
Special day
Books Anything Joi Picoult. 50 shades.
Music Demi Lovato. Britt Nicole. Superchick. Keith Urban.
Movies Freddy VS Jason.
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I Survived Sexual Abuse

My Cousin... No one ever asked me if I wanted my life to be like this. I didnt get a choice. Someone ruined my life for me. Someone took away my right to choose all the things that a normal girl is aloud to. He... [more]
WhenSheCries has shared 1 Mature Experience
  • I Am a Child Abuse Survivor

    ... I used to hate the title "survivor" because people who can go through abuse and come out the other side, did not just survive, we fought every single second for our lives and we didnt just SURVIVE, w… [more]
  • I Am Insecure

    I Always Will Be. All my friends and family think I'm the outgoing one, the confident one, the crazy one, but really that's all a mask. I'm so insecure about myself. I use the "crazy" mask so I can control what people … [more]
  • I Have Bulimia

    6 Years. I started out with Ana when I was about 11 or 12, Iost about 15 kgs but everyone just thought I was losing baby weight, I became a vegaterian, started throw away my lunch or wouldnt even bring food to… [more]
  • I Have Panic Attacks

    Daily. I cant drink caffiene because it increases my heart rate and I have a panic attack, I have to get the right amount of sleep or panic attack. Whenever I go to counseling before hand I have a panic atta… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    IIm scared my therapist doesnt understand.
    Im scared that my therapist I see weekly doesnt get how sick I am. She always seems to down play everything I say. I mean its partly my fault cause Im scared to tell her things but when I do she down plays it or doesnt listen. and I dont know what to do. I cant talk to her freeley and there is always awkward silence cause I dont know what I should say she doesnt lead the convo and leaves it up to me but I dont know what Im meant to do. I become a different person in therapy and I dont know how to fix it. I dont think she understands me and I think I will just stop going.… [more]
  • Leave me to my home.

    Posted on: June 13th, 2013 at 5:22AM

    Right now my life consists of therapy, police reports and self help remedies. I dont have the time and ******* ENERGY to go out and run around town in a short dress getting drunk. I want to stay home and cuddle my little sisters and be with my family, and bake cookies and do things that make me happy. Sure dancing and listening to music is fun, but Im so insecure I dont enjoy it at all. I like being at home. And thats where where you can find me.… [more]

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  • 7 days

    Posted on: October 28th, 2013 at 11:09PM

    So... I feel like I have about seven days to live. One week. Then Im off. Im done. This world is pain and it pains me to know I will be hurting who I love but yeah Im selfish and *I* cant do it anymore! :(… [more]

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