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Female , 18-21

I'm just your everyday girl....I'm the girl hiding her pain so that your smiles aren't hampered...I'm the fighter who is fighting herself to keep her life and give it another chance...I'm just your obedient little actress who comes in your thoughts in night..you think "There was something off about her, I should ask her if she's okay and needs help"..but you see my performance the next day..a perfect role, well delivered...so you forget about it...and the curtains fall again...

Last Seen Dec 31, 2012
Member Since Jan 02, 2011
Favorite Quote Dreams Dreams. I walk them, I live them, I delude myself with them. It's a wonder I can spot reality anymore.
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