XulThuan 22-25, M

I have spent a lot of time reflecting, trying to figure out myself and what life holds for me, truth is I know what it is and I know what it will take, but the fact is, I hate who I am and who I am going to be, yet I see that path as the only one and as hard as I try to change or alter, even backtrack that path still lies ahead of me with no discernable variance in it, im disgruntled, im annoyed, im altogether messed up over this, Ive seen alot, been through some things that others werent as lucky, but really when you know your final steps are you really all that lucky? or is it that you are truly in hell, when you know that no amount of hope will change the outcome, no matter how hard you t… [more]

I have lived my life, not always the right way, but the best at the time. As I grew up, got older, got wiser, I realized the mistakes and what sounded really outlandish and fake, but as I started to see close friends fade, and aquaintances turn to enemies, i realized that it doesnt matter who I was, doesnt matter if i feel sad or happy, or even angry. People eventually stopped caring, stopped being there... so I changed my life, changed who I was and changed who I was going to be to be who I am... I am just me now, love me or leave me, I will get over it, if u want to be a friend then by all means, u want to be just an aquaintance thats your choice, and if you find you don't like me after a … [more]