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Posted by Anonymous
on January 13th, 2008 at 8:44 AM


Dear Beloved,

Life often takes drastic turns. At times we may not know what is ahead. I have found solace in following your lead, confident that we are capable of facing whatever challenges may lie ahead. I look forward to spending an eternity with you. A compliment of you is what I strive to be. I am confident that we will live together for an indefinitely long time. Why?

I love you. I love you in every sense of the word. I love you with warm and personal affection, as a close friend. I love you as a dear family member. I love you romantically. Most of all I love you with the strongest form of love, principled agape love; a love that is an unselfish concern for doing what is right and good, whether it appears to be deserved or not. It is a love that covers mistakes. It provides the basis for “putting up with one another and forgiving one another freely.” Granted we all make mistakes, but this love allows us to forgive. This principled agape love never fails. It is a perfect bond of union.

I deeply respect you. I want to honor you by being kind to you, respectful of your dignity and expressed views, and ready to fulfill any reasonable request made of me. I want to show my deep respect by considering what is best for you and giving that priority. I understand and accept that we may not always agree. It would be unreasonable to expect us to have identical opinions and views on everything. However, I do respect your views and opinions. I want to show my respect for your dignity as well by not making you the object of demeaning jokes or comments.

Because of the love and deep respect I have for you, I feel we can overcome any obstacles that may lie ahead. I feel we can have a happy future together, forever. There are many things I need to work on, many things I want to do but have yet to accomplish. I really need to work at communicating. Good communication flourishes when there are gently spoken words, gracious looks and gestures, kindness, understanding, and tenderness. I know I have failed at times to be understanding and to speak gently and for this I am truly sorry. While learned behavior is not an excuse for me to act in such a way, it may assist you in understanding. There are many personality traits I need to improve on. I find more and more aspects of my personality that need improvement each day. Please be patient with me as I try to make these improvements.

I am trying. I am trying to do what you need me to do. I am being patient but I must admit I am confused and slightly frustrated when my efforts to provide you with, what I believe to be, what you need are met with a less than positive reaction. At times I feel no matter what I do, or how, I am only going to succeed in causing you pain. I am being patient, and will continue in my patience, hoping to gain understanding in time.

I am learning to keep your interests first. You think this cannot be learned, I disagree. I have lived the majority of my life putting the needs of others first. However, for self-preservation I began putting myself first in order to avoid extreme pain and heartache. I had been trampled and beaten so often that in order to save my self from more harm I needed to put my interests first. I know I am capable of putting your needs, wants, and desires first and foremost. I know because it was a challenge to make myself less selfless and more selfish. I do love you and trust you completely. I need to recondition myself and readjust my thinking. I know you will not cause me any intentional harm. This knowledge allows me to make myself vulnerable again. I am able but most of all I truly desire to look out for your best interests instead of my own.

I love you sincerely, without reservation. I respect you deeply.

I miss you.

With all my love,

Heart

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  1. simjournexp1 - 22-25 years old - female

    Posted by simjournexp1 on January 25th, 2012 at 8:23 PM

    ^_^ It is hard to change. I hope you succeed.

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  2. Adreamer14 - 22-25 years old - female

    Posted by Adreamer14 on February 22nd, 2012 at 2:24 PM

    This is simply superb...

    She is a lucky gal..:)

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    Posted by usefulstory on March 11th, 2012 at 3:13 PM

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    Posted by usefulstory on March 11th, 2012 at 3:16 PM

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  5. Becka1515 - 18-21 years old

    Posted by Becka1515 on March 15th, 2012 at 3:44 PM

    That was inspiring, thank you for sharing this with us. :)

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  6. the1zman - 61-65 years old - male

    Posted by the1zman on April 28th, 2012 at 1:00 AM

    A life defined by another... sounds like someone is headed for disappointment. Co-dependence is not healthy. Get a dog.

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  7. Posted by An EP User on May 3rd, 2012 at 4:10 PM

    This little letter just captures all it is to love someone - the feeling of wanting to become the kind of person they deserve, of wanting to give love and not just recieve it. <3

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  8. Loveyouforever060411 - 18-21 years old - female

    Posted by Loveyouforever060411 on May 19th, 2012 at 9:23 PM

    this is beautiful

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  9. tora396 - 16-17 years old - male

    Posted by tora396 on May 25th, 2012 at 10:44 PM

    You are one amazing person who I now admire. Thank you for being awesome and sharing :)

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  10. Posted by An EP User on May 29th, 2012 at 4:27 PM

    I cannot tell you how this hits home in every way. I feel like I have waited an eternity to hear these words, however I think he will never utter them. My heart aches from this. I hope you will say those words, aloud, to the one who deserves to hear them. This life is too short. Best of luck to you and your love. Don't give up. Don't Ever give up.

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