Although this confession is from a married woman. I do not nor have i felt married for many years now. It became a tolerated marriage where we both almost hate each other.But Tolerate. I married my high school BO. after being married prior for 10 years. He came along and the timeing that had always been bad for us finally took a turn and we got together after our divorces. Since then we had everything in common. Some family problems but nothing out of normal. I try to give it my all every day to him and once in a while crash from exhaustion from trying and getting no further than ground zero. I am not materialistic what so ever. I am simple, beautiful, and eager to please. All i ask for is to be married to someone who can talk and not be for a loss of words. I guess my confession is that i have come to the conclusion after another 10 long years that if this is the missery i must endure, i can not live with out love and passionate friends in my life. We have both had affairs in the past aand have survived them waters. But why again am i still looking for engaging conversation and a nice set of arms to be one with me. I feel like i need to go and be fullfilled and get what i need else where. This is not dramatized at all. He will not talk ,says he can't to everything. I doubt theres much left. Am i so wrong to want the arms of a great guy for the future.Yes i know the affair isn't fair but to a guy who refuses to communicate, whats a girl to do.This is not about simple sex. It's about feeling needd,loved, and that when you hurt they care!! Not just walk away or leave the room. I want my dream guy who is a country hearted person. With a wonderous heart like mine.No ones perfect and age and looks should come after initial flash of hope that 2 people will spark. To all you genuine guys LOL. It sucks you stay hidden so us nicee woman can't find you. I have confessed ! I am a married woman not in love and looking for the adveture to return to my life. EXC> PRETTY WOMAN AVAILABLE SOON?? Are there men here?