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Posted by Anonymous
on February 11th, 2008 at 11:29 PM

I miss my ex. boyfriend sooo much. We broke up because we had some relationship problems that just couldn't be fixed. I was kind of miserable with him. His friend always came before me unless something serious was happening with or to me. I am a VERY depressed person and my ex. was very supportive. If I told him I was on the verge of breaking down he would be here within minutes. Even if it's 5 or 6 in the morning and he had to go to school or work....he would be here for me. HE's stopped me from committing suicide twice. I WAS going to a psychiatrist but it didn't work out for me. I even stopped taking my medication. Now I feel so depressed and lonely. I have NO ONE. I want to call my ex. so bad, I want him to come over and hold me and comfort me whille I cry and just "let it all out" but................I can't do that. First of all.... I don't have his number. Second......I'm engaged and I love my future husband but he doesn't know how to comfort me when I'm upset, like now. I tried to talk to him earlier and all he did was make stupid jokes (trying to make me laugh) but it only pissed me off more. I don't think my fiance would like it if I called my ex. to comfort me. I know I wouldn't like for him to call another woman to comfort him. I understand that he is trying to help but it's just not working. Third.....My ex. probably hates me because I got so tired of him-that I just moved on and didn't really have much to say to him after. He found out about my engagement through a friend.

Right now, I feel like swallowing an entire bottle of pills. I would like to go painless. No one will miss me anyway, I'll be soon forgotten. I'm not doing anything special, I have no TRUE friends, and my family treat me like ****. I feel like I have nothing to live for anyway.

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  1. thegrouchygirl - 18-21 years old

    Posted by thegrouchygirl on February 12th, 2008 at 2:49 AM

    you started out saying that you miss your ex. but you were miserable with him, but then about how his is so great, etc. then, how you "love" your current fiance, but want to call your ex so bad. then
    it turns into how you want to kill yourself but no one will miss you. does this sound ridiculous to you at all?

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  2. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User May 23rd, 2015 at 5:03AM

  3. maggienumbernine - 26-30 years old

    Posted by maggienumbernine on February 12th, 2008 at 11:43 PM

    Maybe your comment was derived from a string of emotional thoughts with no organized premise, but then maybe not.... If not, you sound confused about your own view of yourself. It may be beneficial for you to talk to a counselor or therapist. If you are in school, most schools offer the service for free or at no cost. If you work, you can look into counseling services with your employer or the health clinic. Sometimes having someone else guide you into discovering yourself opens your eyes to things you never knew about yourself. Once you figure that out, then I think you will no longer feel so alone. We are the keys to our own happiness - no one else.

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  4. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User May 23rd, 2015 at 5:03AM

  5. lusineksks - 22-25 years old - female

    Posted by lusineksks on March 4th, 2009 at 6:30 PM

    You're just a lost penguine darling who wants a fantacy in her life. You have to get up on your feet and face reality. Life is very unfair. Not everyone is happy all time. We all go through our up's and down's. But things get better eventually. Like my grandfather always says, if the world was happy all time, there would be no excitement and we would end up being bored from being happy all time. Lifes a challenge. No one promised it would be easy.

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  6. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User May 23rd, 2015 at 5:03AM

  7. beachfreak - 56-60 years old - female

    Posted by beachfreak on May 1st, 2009 at 10:35 AM

    1. IF you really missed your ex boyfriend that much, then why in the world would there be another man in the picture?!?
    2. Don't even think about committing suicide, unless you would like to relive this act over and over for all eternity?!
    3. STOP THE DRAMA!!! Your fiance sounds like a neat guy! Get over the past and start enjoying your new future with him!

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  8. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User May 23rd, 2015 at 5:03AM

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