I love Vicodin!

I adore Vicodin!

I would be on it all the time if I could. When I am on it, I feel like I am feeling the way I'm "supposed" to feel. The way other people feel, comfortable, normal, not all tensed up with knots in their backs, having to take deep breaths all the time. I just love the lazy, relaxed feeling it gives me.

I don't actually do it that often, only a few times a month when I can manage to sneak some away from a relative who uses it legitimately for pain. The first time I took it was almost ten years ago when I had four impacted wisdom teeth surgically removed, and man I really needed it then. But I also loved the physical sensation it gave my entire body.

Since then, I have managed to ask my relative for a few pills here and there, usually under the excuse of needing them for severe menstual cramps. And I really do need them for that reason too - nothing else works as well. But I will also take them for recreation. I have never been addicted to any alcohol or drugs, except for cigarettes, but if I had legitimate access to Vicodin whenever I wanted it I would surely become an addict.

I simply feel more physically comfortable and hence, happier when I am on it. I require frequent visits to the chiropractor because of imbalances in my spine, and any time I've ever had a professional message, or even one by a friend, I am always told that I have an extreme amount of tension in my shoulders and back. I'm not conscious of feeling tense all the time but I must be since my back and neck seem to ache so often. Vicodin just melts all of that away.

Once I take one pill I want to keep taking them to maintain the effect until I go to sleep. I am always conscious of when the feeling begins to wear off and then I will take a half, and then an hour later another half, etc.

Last night I took three of them over a six hour period and I was loving life. I don't have any more now, but I'm looking forward to getting a few more. I really try to space out how frequently I used them because I really don't want to get addicted, I just know I love the feeling.

Once, I took 8 in one day. The next day, I had never been sicker in my whole life. My entire body ached and I had a splitting headache. I literally couldn't move from bed or I would feel shooting pains all over. I never want to feel that feeling again. It felt like a fraction of what heroin withdrawal must feel like, though I've never experienced it.

In any case, I know I will continue to use it recreationally whenever possible, while trying my hardest not to use it frequently enough to actually need and crave it.

It is my most loved vice, as of yet.