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Posted by Anonymous
on March 2nd, 2008 at 5:24 PM


I want to kill myself. I am such a loser that its rediculous and I just dont care anymore. I wish I had've done it months ago. I dont really see just what the hell I am waiting around for. I dont think I have much to gain by staying when all involved would be far better off if I wasnt here. I suck, I am a loser and I dont deserve to be here. I dont see how good and talented, beautiful people die all the time but a pathetic punk like me just keeps waking up everyday and wasting space. I really just cant fathom the reasoning.

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  1. enuf - 41-45 years old - male

    Posted by enuf on March 2nd, 2008 at 7:26 PM

    experience - I believe you are here to have experience...

    What make you so special that you deserve the 'biggest loser' award? Maybe we are all 'losers' and some just fake it better than others? Or maybe you are really a winner in drag :-)

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  2. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 11:27AM

  3. rayray1 - 19-21 years old

    Posted by rayray1 on March 2nd, 2008 at 8:00 PM

    i don't know you, and probably never will, but please don't do something like that to yourself.. even if you think you are a punk or worthless, i am sure there are truly good qualities about yourself.. you lust have to put your sadness and madness to the side and dig deep to find the good in yourself!!! just look i promise its there!! everybody has good inside them, and i am positive you are a wonderful person inside, just look!! good luck!!!!

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  4. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 11:27AM

  5. girlinterrupted83 - 22-25 years old - female

    Posted by girlinterrupted83 on March 2nd, 2008 at 8:06 PM

    Oh hunni, I've been there, I understand it's hard. I wish I had some encouragement for you. All I can do is ask you to take care and hang on a bit more... I know there are a good handful of times I've felt that way and then later been glad that I stuck it out. Best of luck.

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  6. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 11:27AM

  7. trista07 - 36-40 years old - female

    Posted by trista07 on March 2nd, 2008 at 10:19 PM

    been there!! our lows are our springboards for our highs. depression is a humbling experience. do the opposite of what you feel like doing. just for kicks. ie. i have thanked God for my pain (sincerely) and then i thanked him for removing it by morning. it worked and i dont know why i did it (it seemed like the thing i wanted to do the least, so that is what i chose to do). nothing else was working for me, i had nothing to lose.

    what are you resisting? you can get better and quick!! it does not have to be a long process. hang in there.

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  8. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 11:27AM

  9. ERICVARGAS74 - 31-35 years old - male

    Posted by ERICVARGAS74 on May 9th, 2010 at 2:06 PM

    FUNNY THING ABOUT IT IS, THAT I FEEL THA SAME WAY, IM TIRED OF WORKING HARD AND NEVER GET AHEAD IN LIFE I DONT HAVE MONEY I LET MY WIFE N KIDS DOWN N IT'S BEEN LIKE THAT FOR 3 YEARS I TRY TO FIND JOBS BUT IT'S BEEN HARD I THINK ABOUT KILING MY SELF AS WELL BUT THE ONLY THING THAT IT'S KEEPING ME FROMTHAT IT'S MY 3 BOYS THAT I LOVE DEARLY . IM HIDDING THE WAY I FEEL TO MY WIFE I DONT TELL HER NO OF THIS I DONT WANT TO WORRY HER MAY BE IM CHOSSING THE EASY WAY OUT BUT IT'S HARD WHEN YOU CAN'T GIVE YOUR FAMILY PROTECTION FINANCIAL THAT IS .I LOST EVERYTHING MY CAR, I HAVE NO JOB,MY WIFE WANTS TO LEAVE ME AND IT'S NOT HER FAULT ,AND MOST OF ALL I DONT WANT TO SHOW MY KIDS HOW MUCH OF A LOSSER I FEEL WHEN I CANT EVEN BUY THEM ANYTHING AT ALL OR PAY THE RENT . I HATE THIS MY LIFE SUCKS MORE THAN EVER I' VE NEVER FELT LIKE THIS BEFORE AND NOW ALL I WANT IT'S TO GO AWAY
    SO MY FAMILY COULD HAVE BETTER THING IN LIFE .. IM A LOSSER THATS WHAT I HEAR FROM SOME PEOPLE I TRY MY BEST TO BE THE GOOD ALL AMERICAN DADINSTEAD I BECAME NOTHING , NOTHING TO SHOW MY KIDS GOOD THING I'VE DONE IM SORRY TO MY KIDS FOR THE TROUBLE I PUT THEM I LOVE THEM SO VERY MUCH I WILL HATE TO SEE THEM STRUGLE BECAUSE OF ME.... MY NAME IS ERIC .. FOR MY OWN GOOD I HOPE SOMETHING GOOD HAPPEN TO ME SOON ...

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  10. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 11:27AM

  11. Eumesmo - 18-21 years old - male

    Posted by Eumesmo on July 5th, 2010 at 12:11 AM

    If you wanna talk, i'm here.

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  12. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 11:27AM

  13. kamsafae - 18-21 years old

    Posted by kamsafae on January 28th, 2011 at 10:20 AM

    i feel the same way too , am 20 and am the only one who get to college from my family , they expect a lot from me , by a lot i mean very much , but i keep screwing every thing i don't prepare to exams so i fell and i feel so guilty cuz i don't do my best , i feel like my financial and professional future is screwed , i had no money neither my family , all my dreams had vanished , i had never had a boyfriend , i don't believe in god like i use to be , i feel lost , and more than that am always ill , illness surround me all the time , i keep hiding from people cuz i feel am a looser ,i use to lock my self in my room and cry , but that affected my sight in a terrible way , the doctor cease me from crying any more , so no money no health no success in college , no love no future , i really got nothing to live for any more , every minute i think of a way to end my tortured life , i wish am dead , i just kept from killing my self because of my mother because that would kill her too , and i always want the best for her,

    but me i wish if i just disappear like if i never been , so that no one would remember the looser am , i want to punish my self by killing it i don't deserve to live i don't deserve to eat or to breath or to sleep in a worm bed or to be loved cuz am a hideous person , but my mother keep me from doing it .

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  14. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 11:27AM

  15. cherry321 - 36-40 years old

    Posted by cherry321 on October 18th, 2011 at 3:57 PM

    Hey this is exactly my feelings, what is a untalented person like me doing on this earth. Eat sleep work, eat sleep work.... Good to konow I am not alone thinkg like this.

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  16. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 11:27AM

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