I once had an epiphany(sp) actually a few, over about 18 months. The most profound one was that if Jesus paid for the sins of mankind then he must be in hell although his seat is at the right hand of god. I envisioned him trying to restore the faith of the fallen angel and move him and all the other lost souls to heaven and create the world described by the second coming.At this same time I realized that by saying that he was the son of god and the son of man, trying to convey the idea that we are all god's children(son or daughter of god) and we are also the sons and daughters of man. The potential to be Christlike lay in his teachings( He was a good Rabbi) Another part of it all was the realization that the earth by definition was a battleground of good and evil.There can be no absolutes here. If you were a purely good person you would ascend to heaven...conversly if you were purely evil you would descend to hell. Free will is something man has been given and because of that life is a series of choices. Because of free will we are free to change our minds.I remember when the force was strong within me( Star Wars referance..lol) I had the occasion to chase demons or pixies out of two small boys with mischief on their faces.They were trying to throw a small girl out into traffic next to their schoolground. I remember simply thinking "Begone foul thing " at them and their faces changed and they let go of the little girl. They actually looked confused. Directly after that I went in search of a clergyman but all the churches were locked. There was one I knew would be open but It was too far away. The one I knew was open was a Lutheran church. The pastor(or whatever title) was a kindred spirit. (He had been in ww2 as a scout. They were given a sherman tank with a wooden cannon...There's a test of faith!)
anyway the confession part of this really is ( including astral travel...but that's another story) While I was becoming spiritually aware I was doing some acid. 3 of us would buy 100 lot of it and eat the whole thing over the course of a weekend.
If you listen to most , they would have you believe that if you were to ever do that suff more than once ...you are insane!...Hard to argue with that logic.