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BodhiSvaha - 22-25 years old - male

Posted by BodhiSvaha
on December 17th, 2009 at 1:53 AM


I'm feeling heartbroken


I keep telling myself that I'm over her but I'm not.


I have the feeling that she doesn't feel the same way towards me. I mean that's apparent through her actions.


I take her abuse with a smile


and I think it makes her more angry


she doesn't understand that I'll love her no matter what.


I hate to see her with him but I know that's just me being foolish


I want her to do what makes her happy I just wish it involved me


What am I doing wrong? Or am I even doing anything wrong?


Am I "reaping what I've sewn"?


if so I want nothing more than to break this karmic cycle.


I want someone to understand me and love me unconditionally


but sometimes I think I can't even do that for myself.


When will I find what I'm looking for?


Maybe when I find out what it is I'm actually looking for.


Life should be good.


It should be beyond good


beyond evil


God, when will I figure this out?

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  1. Krissys88 - 18-21 years old - female

    Posted by Krissys88 on December 17th, 2009 at 10:57 AM

    You will figure it out soon, but you have to move on first, and you have to figure out yourself first. I'm going through a similar situation, I was with a guy on and off for 6 years, we just went around in circle, and last week I just had to stand up and say "Im breaking the cycle!" It hurts, but it will get better, and you just have to look at yourself and focus on yourself right now, love will come when it's ready!! Good luck!!

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    Reply by An EP User Dec 17th, 2014 at 5:56PM

  3. BodhiSvaha - 22-25 years old - male

    Posted by BodhiSvaha on December 17th, 2009 at 8:34 PM

    thank you
    and good luck to you also

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  4. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 17th, 2014 at 5:56PM

  5. S33K3R - 26-30 years old - female

    Posted by S33K3R on January 13th, 2011 at 11:00 PM

    Wow what a beautiful post.... I totally relate to everything that I think you are.... I am in love with a man who well isnt exactly available. I have wanted him for oh so many years... it never seems to be possible though... it is hard to trust men because they all seem to be the same mindless ego trips.... I find life to be an isolating experience and one day I hope to also break my wheel of karma... good luck my friend our spirits are similar in position and design... its a tough road :/ you are doing better than me though hahaha

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  6. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 17th, 2014 at 5:56PM

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