I'm feeling heartbroken
I keep telling myself that I'm over her but I'm not.
I have the feeling that she doesn't feel the same way towards me. I mean that's apparent through her actions.
I take her abuse with a smile
and I think it makes her more angry
she doesn't understand that I'll love her no matter what.
I hate to see her with him but I know that's just me being foolish
I want her to do what makes her happy I just wish it involved me
What am I doing wrong? Or am I even doing anything wrong?
Am I "reaping what I've sewn"?
if so I want nothing more than to break this karmic cycle.
I want someone to understand me and love me unconditionally
but sometimes I think I can't even do that for myself.
When will I find what I'm looking for?
Maybe when I find out what it is I'm actually looking for.
Life should be good.
It should be beyond good
God, when will I figure this out?