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Agonecst - 46-50 years old - male

Posted by Agonecst
on December 30th, 2009 at 6:52 PM

My fetish, is to be tied up, supended, or otherwise rendered helpless, and then poked in the lower belly by a woman, or women, using sharp objects, such as knives, swords, arrows, spikes, pitchforks, etc. The poking certainly need not be dangerous in any way to be effective or enjoyable. My favorite spot ("the sweet spot") is about two inches below my navel.

My fantasy (which lies behind my fetish) is to be snuffed, sacrificed or executed by a woman or women (if possibe with other women watching) by being "bellybutted" (shot in the lower belly and navel with arrows), and then slowly gutted. I also enjoy the fantasy of being crucified and then gutted, or even just committing "hara kiri" with a woman or women watching (the more the merrier). I also like spears and pitchforks in the lower belly and navel.

The wierd thing is that I have had all these fantasies since I was very young. Although my fantasies always and only involve consenting adults, they actually started when I was only 4 years of age. I remember this so clearly: I woke up from a dream in which there was a motherly woman standing by my bed slowly inserting a sword into my lower belly. She was not angry or even cruel in her attitude. She was just slowly inserting the blade into my lower belly, while talking to me softly, telling me not to struggle, to relax, not to fight the pain, to accept it, that it was ok, it was for the best, that it was going to be ok to die. She then asked if I was enjoying it, and I actually started to - even though I had no knowledge of sex or anything along those lines.

Well, after that dream, I started to fantasize being stabbed in the belly. I liked to play cowboys and indians with the other children, and I always pretended that an arrow had hit me and was lodged deeply in my lower belly.

When puberty hit, being very sheltered, I still didn’t know anything about sex. These new sexual feelings I was experiencing were all interpreted as desire to be belly stabbed and gutted. I used to sterilize big long pins and push them into my belly until they popped in! It was incredible ecstacy with tremendous, orgasmic results.

Obviously I found out about sex, and began to have normal desires like other young males. Eventually growing into a normal sex life as a heterosexual. However, those initial feelings of wanting to be belly stabbed and gutted never went away. Once as a young man I craved having my belly penetrated so badly that I actually pushed a knife slowly in about two inches! It was the most sublime but exciting sensation I have ever felt in my life! It was ten times better than sex! It was all I could do not to plunge the blade into by belly over and over again. I wanted to feel it in me sooo bad. I wanted to die in ecstacy! Fortunately, I recovered without having to seek medical care.

I realize now that there are others who share my fetishes/fantasies, most of whom are ashamed of them or fearful of exploring them in any way. But I am not ashamed. These things are so central to who I am that I feel the need to explore them by any means: such as, perhaps, roleplaying, knife play, and other forms of BDSM. I feel loved when I am being tortured, cut and stabbed!

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  1. BrutMystik - 36-40 years old - female

    Posted by BrutMystik on December 30th, 2009 at 10:44 PM

    I hope this happens for you.

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  2. badboris - 41-45 years old - male

    Posted by badboris on January 25th, 2010 at 2:25 AM

    Thanks for your story. I too have had a recurring crucifixion fantasy since being young. The feel of helplessness and exposure is something that has always turned me on. Tell me more about why you want to be crucified?

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  3. txgirl281 - 13-15 years old - female

    Posted by txgirl281 on February 18th, 2010 at 8:34 PM

    I have a best friend (guy) who just told me that he wants to be crucified and he wants me to help him. I thought it was strange cuz i never heard anyone say that before, but he showed me that he has copies of stuff from books bout it....I'm not real sure yet but i guess if he wants to do it I will help him...I just have questions that need answers.

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  4. geoo - 61-65 years old - male

    Posted by geoo on March 14th, 2010 at 11:11 PM

    I have always ways to be shot in the belly, prefer arrow and just one, but arrow has to hit me right in my navel and I live for hours with the arrow sticking out of my belly birth navel.

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  5. wayout8 - 61-65 years old

    Posted by wayout8 on April 10th, 2010 at 11:45 PM

    Ever since I was about six I have loved my navel and dreamed of being shot with arrow or spear threw my navel. I believe I can live for awhile with the spear or arrow threw my navell I want no other wounds.

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  6. stbme23 - 26-30 years old

    Posted by stbme23 on August 23rd, 2010 at 5:00 PM

    i would love to find someone to fulfill the same desire. i have had trouble finding someone to get together with and stab my stomach. i'v done it to myself so many time's. i can't get enough. i don't care if your male or female. it feels so good. female preferd because well you know. hey txgrl well it is more a arousement thing i not sure he wants to go that far. the stomach just below the belly button is a big time arousment spot. sure pushin a knife into it slowly is a good start. don't be affraid of it. i have had a blade all the way in before, several times. it's to bad me and him could'nt get together. were looking fo the same thing.

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  7. Garfie69 - 36-40 years old - male

    Reply by Garfie69 Sep 25th, 2012 at 5:54PM

    I've done it loads of times it's such a great feeling I'd happily do it for you !


  8. leannlanky - 46-50 years old

    Posted by leannlanky on January 13th, 2011 at 8:21 AM

    others have exactly this same fantasy. what does your abdomen look like I wonder-

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  9. abstab1 - 46-50 years old

    Posted by abstab1 on February 28th, 2011 at 11:15 AM

    Same here, had a blade go in about 2 inch well low in my abdomen. And yes I would do it again, however, I would prefer another guy do it to me as long as I can do the same to him. I find it sensational just seeing the blade slowly penetrate the belly. Started when I was very young as well with needles, then darts.

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  10. ward8 - 31-35 years old - male

    Posted by ward8 on April 17th, 2011 at 10:40 AM

    Yes the ultimate final ******, naked my **** swollen so hard as the spear goes through me two inches below the belly button, my **** explodes *** as I pull at the spear and I crash to the ground dead.

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  11. ward8 - 31-35 years old - male

    Posted by ward8 on April 17th, 2011 at 10:40 AM

    Yes the ultimate final ******, naked my **** swollen so hard as the spear goes through me two inches below the belly button, my **** explodes *** as I pull at the spear and I crash to the ground dead.

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