i touched my little brother when i was 12

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XQUZEME - 22-25 years old - male

Posted by XQUZEME
on April 9th, 2010 at 12:38 AM


I was like eleven or twelve years old I was in my room jacking off by myself. My little brother came in and started copying me (playing with his penis). I told him no  do it like this and briefly demonstrated on him (played with his penis) then stopped and we both left the room. My brother asked me why I had done that in front of my mother and I was beyond sheer emberassment/shame/guilt/anxiety/sadness/depression/feelings of worthlessness and the list goes on. Anyway my parents put me though sheer hell for what seemed like ten years. I felt alienated and perverted after my father explained to me I was considered a ********* and my mom said something about calling the police. I never told my parents that I was jacking off with my brother who is way younger than me because that would have made me look even worse but

I know I am not attracted or sexually aroused by kids/my brother. Even though I did this over twelve years ago I for some reason doubt myslef and feel I could be a sicco for doing that crap. I don't know what got into me but oh my God I n ever expected it to ruin my life. My little brother remembers nothing of this incident and telling him is irrelevant. I told my parents I feel like I should not be their son anymore and they said oh we know how boys are we totally forgot about it. But it still aint right and I would like to start feeling normal about myself again but first I would like to take some opinions. These days I abstain from jacking off ninety percent of the time and pray always to keep myself mind and body clear of any evil. Do you think I am a ********* perv or have trendencies? I won't be offended.

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  1. CoracaoQuebrado - 26-30 years old - female

    Posted by CoracaoQuebrado on April 9th, 2010 at 12:44 AM

    *hugs* I'm sorry you feel that way. I grew up in a house where any curiosities where always addressed and questions were family isn't shy about s*x. *shrugs* I honestly don't see anything that wrong with what you did. You were a kid yourself. Especially considering the fact that you are clear about your lack of sexual attraction, well....?

    I dunno. Kids explore, I guess....I guess every kid I've known...?

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  2. XQUZEME - 22-25 years old - male

    Posted by XQUZEME on April 9th, 2010 at 1:14 AM

    Oh man you guys really understand God answered my prayer. I've confessed this to a few other people in person also you know I just want to be a good guy. Thank You for your help, this unresolved emotional disturbance has fueled my drug addiction for many years and now I am learning to love myself again thank you. Thanks!!!

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  3. TomWriteNow - 51-55 years old - male

    Posted by TomWriteNow on April 9th, 2010 at 1:30 AM are are not a *********. try to enjoy life.

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  4. elizabethmorena - 26-30 years old - female

    Posted by elizabethmorena on April 9th, 2010 at 4:30 PM

    Please, you should have told your parents what you were doing, and they shouldn't have handled it the way they did. This is totally normal behavior in kids of both sexes.
    You have been tormenting over nothing important.
    Please just love yourself, you seem to be a great person and a great brother!

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  5. XQUZEME - 22-25 years old - male

    Posted by XQUZEME on April 28th, 2010 at 10:10 PM

    That was nice of you to say. Thanks

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  6. Alexc1989 - 22-25 years old - male

    Posted by Alexc1989 on January 4th, 2012 at 4:43 PM

    This is not the act of a paedophile. Just a young kid fooling around. There's nothing to be worried or concerned about.

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  7. prpm - 13-15 years old

    Posted by prpm on June 16th, 2012 at 4:02 AM

    I also do that with my little brother. I'm 13 and he is 5 years old. And by the way some times he doesn't copy me and in those times he plays with me penis.

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  8. DoinMyBestHere - 22-25 years old - male

    Posted by DoinMyBestHere on July 2nd, 2012 at 6:04 AM

    I have had a similar experience and its great hearing someone go through something similar. I was about 14 i think and my younger brother 4ish and i showed him my erect penis. I asked him to touch it and he did. Then mum called from the other room and we both left.

    He obviously doesnt remember and my parents never found out. I am 25 now and i still fear that might have been a sign of something worse in me. It's weird. I dont know how to shake the guilt i have. But it's nice to hear i might not be a pervert!

    I am not attracted to my family members or kids. But the negative thoughts are intense sometimes.

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  9. Juliena559 - 18-21 years old - female

    Posted by Juliena559 on October 25th, 2012 at 9:48 PM

    l can understand you .l wanna be

    your friend.

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  10. Posted by An EP User on March 10th, 2013 at 11:41 PM

    You are normal!! The male hormone acts almost like a drug whereby you can be thee most moral guy in the world... yet as soon as the hormone levels rise, (haha) your outlooks change and a guy will have all kinds of dirty thoughts. (just telling the truth). The only way to manage your sex drive is by vowing to adhere to a strong set of values/morals, .no matter what! Otherwise, IT (your sex drive) will command your life, and lead you into more and more reckless and self-destructive sexual experiences. Values keep us from having sex with our parents, children, ...even animals. Follow me? You are smart enough to know that sex with children is wrong, so just don't think about it. Focus ONLY on adults and you'll train your sexual mind to understand where it can go. No, you are NOT a pervert. True perverts are created by men who don't want anything to do with boundaries and end up sociatal animal-- slaves of the male hormone (testosterone).

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