I DID SOMETHING STUPID. When
I was like eleven or twelve years old I was in my room jacking off by myself. My little brother came in and started copying me (playing with his penis). I told him no do it like this and briefly demonstrated on him (played with his penis) then stopped and we both left the room. My brother asked me why I had done that in front of my mother and I was beyond sheer emberassment/shame/guilt/anxiety/sadness/depression/feelings of worthlessness and the list goes on. Anyway my parents put me though sheer hell for what seemed like ten years. I felt alienated and perverted after my father explained to me I was considered a ********* and my mom said something about calling the police. I never told my parents that I was jacking off with my brother who is way younger than me because that would have made me look even worse but
I know I am not attracted or sexually aroused by kids/my brother. Even though I did this over twelve years ago I for some reason doubt myslef and feel I could be a sicco for doing that crap. I don't know what got into me but oh my God I n ever expected it to ruin my life. My little brother remembers nothing of this incident and telling him is irrelevant. I told my parents I feel like I should not be their son anymore and they said oh we know how boys are we totally forgot about it. But it still aint right and I would like to start feeling normal about myself again but first I would like to take some opinions. These days I abstain from jacking off ninety percent of the time and pray always to keep myself mind and body clear of any evil. Do you think I am a ********* perv or have trendencies? I won't be offended.