I cut myself.

I started cutting myself when I was 15. It's been on and off, but I started again. I've talked to many people who cut and it seems my issuses are different. I like the control I get. I like the fact that no one else can take credit for doing it to me. I feel like every time someone hurts me, I'm giving them something. They can say they defeated me, but I'm the only one that makes me bleed.



I use a sock to hold my razor, and every time I cut, I use that same sock to wipe the blood away. I never wash it. I use it as a sort of trophie of how much I've done. I have a sick obsession with blood. I don't like the pain I get from cutting, but I like that I bleed.