Posted by jillianlarson2011
on January 1st, 2011 at 9:15 PM
I have suicidal thoughts ,often. I can normally keep them in the back of my mind with all my other problems. My parents were worried about me because I was depressed ,so they got me a shrink. My parents don't know that I'm suicidal thou ,I think its for the best. But when i get really upset and i feel trapped my suicidal thoughts get out of control . They are out of control right now, that is why I'm writing this. I want to go get one of my dad's guys and shout my self in the head, but i know how bad my death would hurt my family. so I sit here and write, I could call my shrink like she told me to, but I have not had to go see her in months and I don't want anyone( i know) to know my problems are flaring up again.
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