Thinking about those who are no longer with us...

Sometimes when I think about all those who have died in the last 10 years' collection of tragedies and disasters, I feel a sense of shock or awakening inside of me as though I am realizing anew the horrors of reality and the loss of those many individuals who can no longer be with us. It feels almost as though I was asleep before and every now and then I wake up and realize this disgusting reality all over again. I don't know how to explain it properly, but it feels horrible. Such a sense of loss... It's like when a loved one dies and for weeks later you wake up in the mornings in disbelief as to what has happened to you... unable to accept the grim reality...