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jillianlarson2011 - 18-21 years old - female

Posted by jillianlarson2011
on March 6th, 2011 at 11:43 AM

my friends are lame, i don't go out .

i just hide in my goodie two shes shell and let people thing I'm great because i get good grade and don't get into trouble .

i look around and my sibling all have lots of friends and great memories of going out with all there friends.

i don't have that, my friends are lame and just do school work and can't even spare a moment to text me back

i am going to graduate and I'm still going to be a lame virgin with no life, i hate my life.

.i hate my life so much that i just want to be done. i want to die and let people remember me as a good kid .that is it.

my parents are in Texas on vacation with there friends, my little brother just left with his friends like always,and my older sister is asleep in my room

it is a perfect time to take a bunch of pills and slit my wrists and be done with all the **** i feel.

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  1. naturallyme8706 - 22-25 years old

    Posted by naturallyme8706 on March 6th, 2011 at 11:48 AM

    please don't hurt yourself, it might sound cliche but your asking for an eternity in hell. You don't want that, especially because you are sharing it over the internet you want someone to tell you to not do it, I don't know you but i love and care for you, I feel for you because I have been through similar situations, even at this very moment. Learn to love you through God's love, pray to him about your troubles because nothing is too big for him. he is your friend when humans fail you which they always will throughout your life. Pray for those friends you desire and he will give it to you. I will continue to pray for you, that you will seek him and go to him. God Bless!!

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  2. ahanrocx - 41-45 years old

    Posted by ahanrocx on March 6th, 2011 at 11:50 AM

    woah woah if dis is da perfect tym for nething...den its for havin a sleepover! call ur lame frnds over.......n hav a lame sleepover.....ders no harm in being a gud girl....infact wen ppl knw u as a gud girl....u can get away wid being bad sumtyms......ask ur parents fr permssn if u scared...m sure dey'll say yes......

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  3. jillianlarson2011 - 18-21 years old - female

    Posted by jillianlarson2011 on March 6th, 2011 at 12:01 PM

    i have invited my friends over for sleep overs tons of times, they always decline. they say " i have to much home work sorry, maybe next time" or "i have to work hun, sorry!!!" they can't even find time to just come over and wach a movie. my life sucks and i'm sick of it.

    i pray to god every day but NOTHING!

    all god did was give me an IQ of 121 so i would only fit in with nurds who just spend there life doing home work.

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  4. Alifranklin - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by Alifranklin Dec 13th, 2011 at 1:39PM

    you know, i only have an IQ of 110, but i understand. i had no friends, the only people who didnt hate me were anime nerds. and not one of them could ever come over and hang out. or so they said.


  5. jillianlarson2011 - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by jillianlarson2011 Dec 14th, 2011 at 12:39AM

    so true! its so lame how my bff sarah is always "writeing a paper" and cant hang out! but she is always saying she wants to hang out!!!!!!!!!!


  6. 123456789n - 16-17 years old - female

    Posted by 123456789n on March 6th, 2011 at 12:34 PM

    dnt give up nt all ppl can be frnds u can find some friends if nt knw u will later and if it is so hrd fr thm to minggle wth u then screw them and thts bcz ure better than them but be who make friends and good luck wth tht it is a blessing to be a smrt student(:

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  7. jillianlarson2011 - 18-21 years old - female

    Posted by jillianlarson2011 on March 6th, 2011 at 1:33 PM

    lol thanks , and teachers do LOVE me!!

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  8. angelsofhope2008 - 26-30 years old - male

    Posted by angelsofhope2008 on March 6th, 2011 at 8:29 PM

    It's not too late... you can always do stuff with your friends, or get other friends too. You don't really have to turn into some kind of rebel without a clue, just to have fun, anyway... it's all in your definition of "fun".

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  9. jillianlarson2011 - 18-21 years old - female

    Posted by jillianlarson2011 on March 6th, 2011 at 8:53 PM


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  10. claudianovotny - 26-30 years old - female

    Posted by claudianovotny on June 23rd, 2012 at 1:09 PM

    Hi Jillian

    I lost someone three weeks ago. He was the son of a client of mine and I was going to give him a work experience placement this summer after he finished his GCSE exams... kinda like graduating. He was amazing and had a very bright future ahead of him... but he couldn't see it. His sisters and parents are hurting so much and all the people who would be important in his life; girlfriends, wife, coworkers will never know him; his children will never be born, You are so precious, Babe. You will find your place in this wonderous world of ours even if it takes a few years yet. Have faith in yourself and you will get through the dark times. And when you do, you'll realise that you could never have predicted when the thing that changes your life will happen.

    With as much love as I can send you... Cxxxxx

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  11. jillianlarson2011 - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by jillianlarson2011 Jun 24th, 2012 at 11:49AM

    thanks my life has done a 180 sense i wrote this story o so long ago i've made major changes and i'm happy 80ish% of the time. i still have suicide problems but i have learned to deal with them . i'm no longer a threat to myself. i get out and stay busy witch really helps just last night i was feeling ****** so i when to the club and and ended up meeting this amazing women and we really hit things off! she is hung over laying in bet right now . but i'm really looking forward to seeing where things go from here once shes feeling better. so i'm in a much better place then i was last march!


  12. claudianovotny - 26-30 years old - female

    Reply by claudianovotny Jun 24th, 2012 at 1:06PM

    I am so relieved... Hugs and kisses to you


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