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Goodbye, Snob!

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snob - 26-30 years old

Posted by snob
on August 21st, 2011 at 6:18 AM

      The reason why I signed up here at Experience Project is to keep tabs on my ex. I think I had sunk so low in my life and needed to cling on to something in order to live. Of course, I was wrong. Through EP, I've learned that my ex had reunited with her husband despite the divorce, despite being physically abused, despite being mentally abused, despite being emotionally abused. She came back to him, and she is still not happy.

I kept wondering why she chose to be with him again even though I am here for her. Of course, that was the problem. I am here and she is at the other side of the Earth, hundred miles away. I guess she was simply being practical. She cut me off from her life completely, removed me from her friend list at FB. And I imagine she decided to believe our short fling that lasted a year was merely her imagination, a fantasy, or simply a dream. Or a fluke. Days passed. Days became weeks. Weeks became months. And months turned to years. It was two years since the last time I heard from her, and she from me. I never tried to contact her. And I never will.


      I had written this because I decided to stop logging in here at EP. But I'd like to say a few words (or a handful) before I go…

You don't need to be here. The problem you think you are having only exists in your mind. People who have serious problems don't log in to a website, looking for amateur advice. They go to hospitals. They go to a professional. There are people who have devoted their lives to help people with serious mental problems. They can help you. Not this website. Now, if you really believe you have a problem, go to a professional who can help you. They can diagnose you. They can evaluate you. They can give you medicines for your chemical imbalance. They can help you.

      Of course, not all who log in here believe they have a problem. Some are simply looking for someone to talk to, someone who'd listen. There are few people here who'd listen to you, a few you can talk to, but that will not help. You need to talk to real people. People who can look you in the eyes while you talk to them. People who can hold your hand if you ask them to. People who can hold you while you cry. But you say, my real friends don’t want to listen to me, they don’t want to hold my hand, they don’t want to hold me. Then I think it’s time for you to look for someone who will. People have different interests. All you need to do is to look for someone who has the same interests as yours.

      Different problems, different troubles… only one solution. Talk and listen. Okay, that’s two solutions but without the other one, both will not work. Talk. That’s all we need to do. Talk to ourselves, ask ourselves what we want, ask ourselves what the problem is. Add Listen. Listen to ourselves, listen to our problems, listen to our needs, listen to our own solutions. Somewhere deep in your mind the answers and the solutions will come forward. What the fcuk am I talking about, you ask? When you feel hungry what do you do? Eat (of course!). Thirsty? Drink up (obviously!). Simple signs. Simple solutions. Let’s push it up a bit shall we.

      I feel depress. There’s nothing I can do to make me happy. I can’t sleep. I can’t eat. The logical thing to do it is to stir up the chemicals in your body. Do some exercises. The body will produce serotonin, and it will contribute to the feeling of well-being. Serotonin will influence your mood and take you away from depression. Exercises, coincidentally, will tire you up, and when you’re tired, you will want to sleep (obviously!). Exercises also stirs up your appetite (of course!). The simple act of exercising will kill three birds.

     Problems with your bf/gf/wife/husband? They can’t love you enough as you wanted to be loved? There are seven billion people on Earth. Why the fcuk would you want to be with someone who will not make you happy? You have a child, you say? You can’t leave your partner because of the child? Would you rather see your child grow up knowing that one of the parents is unhappy? Unless you can stop yourself from bitching at all times, and you’re a really, really good actor then go ahead, stay with you partner and raise your child. But if you’re not, believe me, you’re not only hurting yourself, you’re hurting your child too. Problems with a partner can be solved with the strength to talk and the ability to listen. If one of you doesn’t want to listen, then there’s no reason to continue the relationship.

     Someone is abusing you? Beating you up? Saying abusive words? Taking your lunch money? If you still don’t know, we have authorities to deal with that now. One call and they’ll put away the person who’s abusing you. But it’s my mom who abuses me! I can’t let the cops put her away, and I know she loves me despite of everything. Listen, honey, I think you need to leave wherever fantasy land you’re living in, because in reality, abuse is not the equivalent of love. Don’t let those fcukers bury you to the ground. Jesus, even animals today have rights so why can’t you?

      Do you feel alone in this world? There are seven billion people on Earth and you say you’re alone? That’s not right. Then what are you, a special human hybrid? A half-cow, half-human wearing pants? A half-worm, half-human who can talk, walk, and feel lonely? You are not alone. That’s only being melodramatic, if you ask me.

      What you’ve read is not the world best advice (obviously!)(of course!). You don’t need advice. You are in control of your life so why will you seek outside help? You are nobody’s slave. The only person who can help you is yourself. You are not weak. Just melodramatic. Stop watching soap operas and watch Stallone movies instead.

      You’ve reach the end of this ranting. Yay! And here is your price. This account’s username is: snob. Password is: goodbyesnob. Use it wisely. You can delete this account, change username/password, or whatever. Or you can just leave it like it is and let somebody else use it. But I’d rather you’d forget about this account, forget about your account, forget about EP, and live your life.

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  1. BigBearLittleBear - 41-45 years old - female

    Posted by BigBearLittleBear on August 22nd, 2011 at 3:15 PM

    People come here to you not noticed?

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  2. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User May 24th, 2015 at 4:54AM

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