Hopeless, scared and so worried!!!

Yesterday 2 room mate I had move out just a few days before rent is due. I know why they left and it was because I would not let him jump on a friend of mine in my room, yelling and cussing her like a dog, I thought he was going to hit her. So I jumped up off my bed and told him he will not talk to her that way! He smarted off to me and I all the sudden could not see anything but black! I remember swinging on him and hitting him several times! A friend of mine grabbed me by my wrist and looked me in the eyes saying my name. The look in his eyes was pure terror. I have never seen that look in his eyes before. I stopped and told my room mate (Robert) to get the hell out of my room. He did and I felt like a complete *** for acting that way! I just dont like people who think its ok to just go around bulling others!


Well they both left and I was told he left because I did not say I was sorry for going off on him. I think he needs to talk to my friend who was scared shitless by him and tell her he is sorry too! I do agree I should have said I was sorry, and I did today.


So my point is now I don't have part of the rent they were suppose to give. I don't know what I am going to do!


I guess next time I will think about it before I let my emotions take over and do stupid things, but part of me feel's like that son of a ***** deserved to get beat for talking to another woman the way he did! She had no idea what she did to him to make him mad! I thought he was going to hit her so I felt I had to protect her!


Do you all think I was in the wrong for acting the way I did? I kinda feel that if I did not act like that he would be here and I would not have this problem, but if I did nothing he would think its okay to disrespect me and my friends. Anyways! Thanks for reading all my craziness!  bye for now!