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Kirbyisme - 18-21 years old - female

Posted by Kirbyisme
on September 24th, 2011 at 4:40 PM


18 yrs old and i still have no more of an life then i did when i was younger, only thing that is different is that im in college, i have a bf, yeah that is the only things that i can think of right now that are different in my life now. and dont get me wrong i love my bf to death and college is alright. its just im sick and tired of living with my strict grandma, who loves to control my life and what i do with it. she is the reason why im so stressed out, she puts so much pressure on me to do good. i have to be what she wants me to be or rather i have to act like she wants me to act. i need to get away from this place, i need to move away from her house. and u probably are thinking it cant be that bad, let me put this into prospective, she made me change my jeans the other day because they had 1 hole in the knee (keep in mind i was going to a football game). she said that i looked like a damn hippie with them pants and she said that i either cut them into shorts or i throw them away. maybe im just a failure, and she knows it, but i dont feel like a failure, i think i just have bloom all the way yet. she says that it is hard on her. i get it that she is old, she is 77 yrs old she will be 78 in december, but still why does she have to be so stricted. oh and i love her anti-dating rule. this is her snti-dating rule, which is, no dating till you are completely done school and you have a good job. and even if i followed that rule, whatever guy i meet must in her mind meet her qualifications and she is so picky, thus why i dont follow that rule because she is too picky. maybe i am just complaining but i feel as though i am stuck in a rut and i dont have a say what goes on in my life. i would hang out with my friends but i rarely get to see them.  in my opinion my life sucks, someone actually told me that my life and the way i live is boring, i kind of shrugged the person off. maybe i should explain as to why they said it is boring, the reason being is because i live in a safe-bubble, if i want to do something my family must know every little detail about it. and i mean every detail. so yeah i think i touched everything i wanted to tell you all, which for the most part most of you probably wont even read it.

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  1. Posted by An EP User on November 6th, 2011 at 9:55 PM

    Wow, really your grandmother seems very controlling! I think you should live your own life the way you want it, and not live other peoples expectations.. My past 18 years of life I have been living other peoples expectations of me..to just go focus on school and never commit in a relationship which I did proficiently.. Now I'm in this identity crisis where I can't even feel the need to trust my family on what I should do..

    I guess the older generation don't have a good understanding on how our life is like and completely different from their lifestyle... And about your grandmother, I have mixed feelings about because shes family and may pass away soon so I wouldn't want to disappoint her on her end of her time but I really think you should try to talk through it because avoiding those problems will continue to add up until they literally explode all at once.. I really wouldn't want my grandparents to be disappointed now in life because they have gone through alot and they are almost going away, but in your case i really don't know how to solve the situation.

    You definitely do need to live your own life.. Be the change you wish to see in the world! :)

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  2. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 1:28AM

  3. Kirbyisme - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by Kirbyisme Nov 14th, 2011 at 12:29PM

    thank ya charlie

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  4. Posted by An EP User on December 12th, 2011 at 12:07 PM

    I guess from now on you should stand up against your grand mom's extraordinary interference, and her unnecessary restriction on your life.If you could make her stop now than I am sure later you will be in trouble, as I am because of my mother.



    Bless you !

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  5. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 1:28AM

  6. Posted by An EP User on December 12th, 2011 at 12:07 PM

    I guess from now on you should stand up against your grand mom's extraordinary interference, and her unnecessary restriction on your life.If you could make her stop now than I am sure later you will be in trouble, as I am because of my mother.



    Bless you !

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  7. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Dec 27th, 2014 at 1:28AM

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