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Jimbo89 - 22-25 years old - male

Posted by Jimbo89
on November 25th, 2011 at 1:57 AM


Today, I went to one of my brother 's house to celebrate thanksgiving with the family. For no particular reason, I was really cold-heart and quiet to everyone even though they spoke to me brightly. Most of the time, I was listening to my music and closing my eyes pretending I was asleep. It calms me down ignoring the environment and surrounding I was in. I couldn't stand looking at my family of how interactive and happy they are. It makes me feel unease and insecure for many reasons. I made it pretty obvious on my mood towards them so they leave me alone and stop talking to me. I don't want them to butt in to my lame sensitive problems.

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  1. iamCharles - 18-21 years old

    Posted by iamCharles on November 25th, 2011 at 2:01 AM

    my thanksgiving was crap. i wish. for some reason it felt like one of the happiest holidays brought me the most miserable day of this year for me. i'm still not over it, which is why i'm probably on this site..... i feel you jim

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  2. Posted by An EP User on November 25th, 2011 at 10:54 PM

    The same exact thing happen to me on Thanksgiving day. I was cold-hearted and quiet to the point that I would not respond a single word to anybody.. It was clear that everyone was aware of my mental health conditions which I had only told 1-2 of my relatives which I assume they told everybody.. Telling my secrets that I had thought they can keep it made me lose trust and hope on everyone.. Being treated there was something wrong with me where family members came to me with friendly confrontations AND harshful criticisms to my health problems pushed my buttons to the point I just went outside not saying a word to anyone and there I poured my heart out with a severe anxiety attack to the dark starry night.. Now i feel like i have no emotion, i am very aware of their care for me but the way everyone,EVERYONE, was like in my face just worsen what I had recently been trying to recover..

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  3. Jimbo89 - 22-25 years old - male

    Reply by Jimbo89 Nov 26th, 2011 at 5:37PM

    That's how I lost my trust the way you described it. I felt rumors were spread out when I told 1-2 of my family members and they go on telling my relatives and everyone that I also suspect. I know my family member are very tight and close to each other so they gossip and share information. I can't even be myself around with them any more.

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  4. UniversalSelf19 - 18-21 years old - male

    Reply by UniversalSelf19 Nov 27th, 2011 at 1:43AM

    I am so with you.. really only trust used to trust like 5-6 members but now can only rely on 1 person ): I am tired of this, that's it I'm going to make a family of my own out there and your most welcome to join in Jimbo89! I will protect ya^^

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