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shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

Posted by shelle48
on November 29th, 2011 at 8:29 PM


some 40yrs. ago before I could truly understand my condition I thought i could just do the normal things that a man should do and it would all work out the way it should. Being just home from Vietnam and still a little dazed by the war, I thought if I could just act as a man everything would work out and I would not have to fight Shelle anymore, so  I married my sons mother. This did not stop Shelle from wanting to be part of my life. Eventually It ended my marriage, still I denied that Shelle would win. So I married again thinking she would be suppressed ,again Shelle could not stay away. Yet another failed marriage. Then I met the true love of my life I began the whole thing from day one with Shelle in front of me, ,JO AN married me and participated Shelle's life as a full partner' sadly I lost her to suicide some 12yrs. later.now I'm on my own,Just Shelle the pain is still there but I will carry on for her. she was a rare prize in the journey of life. Shelle.

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  1. livinglargetoo - 56-60 years old - male

    Posted by livinglargetoo on November 29th, 2011 at 9:18 PM

    Sometimes things are what they are.

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  2. atsweet - 31-35 years old - female

    Posted by atsweet on November 29th, 2011 at 9:24 PM

    Oh jo an died

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  3. prettylace - 56-60 years old - male

    Posted by prettylace on November 30th, 2011 at 6:31 PM

    And Shelle lives stronger and healthier then ever "aint nothin' gonna stop those pretty toes now"



    HUGS

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  4. cyrsti - 61-65 years old

    Posted by cyrsti on January 10th, 2012 at 10:50 PM

    So sorry for your loss! Doesn't matter how long ago it was.

    On the bright side, you have to feel fortunate she passed through your life!

    Went through a similar experience my self!

    hugzzz

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  5. shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

    Reply by shelle48 Jan 10th, 2012 at 11:03PM

    thanks for your kind words, would like to know about your loss yours shelle.

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  6. cyrsti - 61-65 years old

    Reply by cyrsti Jan 10th, 2012 at 11:07PM

    wife and best friend of 27 years died of an heart attack at work at the age of 50. 4 years ago. Just now recovering

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  7. CateinFlorida - 61-65 years old

    Posted by CateinFlorida on January 18th, 2012 at 3:16 PM

    Shelle,



    I ache at your losses. My Becky doesn't understand, but is trying and loves me still. I'm glad you had your time together.



    Cate

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  8. shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

    Reply by shelle48 Jan 18th, 2012 at 3:33PM

    funny you made your comment today as i was just listening to our song and crying, I miss her so much, many times I have just wanted to give it up and join her. Shelle

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  9. Posted by An EP User on January 22nd, 2012 at 3:49 PM

    sorry for your loss you have to keep going like you are

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  10. monica85 - 70+ years old - male

    Posted by monica85 on January 22nd, 2012 at 4:48 PM

    ITappears that you had the best of both worlds. So sorry,,now are you going to go into antter marriage.

    I you do make certain that your SO accepts Shelle.

    Best wishes

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  11. shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

    Reply by shelle48 Jan 22nd, 2012 at 6:22PM

    I will not marry again,I am however in love with some like myself.

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  12. Posted by An EP User on January 27th, 2012 at 10:02 PM

    After reading this, I just want to give you a hug.

    So, *HUG*

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  13. shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

    Reply by shelle48 Jan 27th, 2012 at 10:04PM

    thank you so kind

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  14. singwme - 56-60 years old - female

    Posted by singwme on February 2nd, 2012 at 11:28 AM

    you are lovely

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  15. shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

    Reply by shelle48 Feb 2nd, 2012 at 11:31AM

    thanks but I'm not all that.

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  16. Jennyv - 36-40 years old

    Posted by Jennyv on March 2nd, 2012 at 6:47 PM

    You seem like a strong woman. That is very sad. I am hanging on to my marriage. She loves jenny very much. It is hard for her though. Sounds like you deserve someone special. I wish you the very best.

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