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shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

Posted by shelle48
on November 29th, 2011 at 8:29 PM


some 40yrs. ago before I could truly understand my condition I thought i could just do the normal things that a man should do and it would all work out the way it should. Being just home from Vietnam and still a little dazed by the war, I thought if I could just act as a man everything would work out and I would not have to fight Shelle anymore, so  I married my sons mother. This did not stop Shelle from wanting to be part of my life. Eventually It ended my marriage, still I denied that Shelle would win. So I married again thinking she would be suppressed ,again Shelle could not stay away. Yet another failed marriage. Then I met the true love of my life I began the whole thing from day one with Shelle in front of me, ,JO AN married me and participated Shelle's life as a full partner' sadly I lost her to suicide some 12yrs. later.now I'm on my own,Just Shelle the pain is still there but I will carry on for her. she was a rare prize in the journey of life. Shelle.

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  1. livinglargetoo - 56-60 years old - male

    Posted by livinglargetoo on November 29th, 2011 at 9:18 PM

    Sometimes things are what they are.

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  2. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 25th, 2015 at 10:43PM

  3. atsweet - 31-35 years old - female

    Posted by atsweet on November 29th, 2011 at 9:24 PM

    Oh jo an died

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    Reply by An EP User Apr 25th, 2015 at 10:43PM

  5. prettylace - 56-60 years old - male

    Posted by prettylace on November 30th, 2011 at 6:31 PM

    And Shelle lives stronger and healthier then ever "aint nothin' gonna stop those pretty toes now"



    HUGS

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    Reply by An EP User Apr 25th, 2015 at 10:43PM

  7. CateinFlorida - 61-65 years old

    Posted by CateinFlorida on January 18th, 2012 at 3:16 PM

    Shelle,



    I ache at your losses. My Becky doesn't understand, but is trying and loves me still. I'm glad you had your time together.



    Cate

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  8. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 25th, 2015 at 10:43PM

  9. shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

    Reply by shelle48 Jan 18th, 2012 at 3:33PM

    funny you made your comment today as i was just listening to our song and crying, I miss her so much, many times I have just wanted to give it up and join her. Shelle

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  10. Posted by An EP User on January 22nd, 2012 at 3:49 PM

    sorry for your loss you have to keep going like you are

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    Reply by An EP User Apr 25th, 2015 at 10:43PM

  12. monica85 - 66-70 years old - male

    Posted by monica85 on January 22nd, 2012 at 4:48 PM

    ITappears that you had the best of both worlds. So sorry,,now are you going to go into antter marriage.

    I you do make certain that your SO accepts Shelle.

    Best wishes

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  13. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 25th, 2015 at 10:43PM

  14. shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

    Reply by shelle48 Jan 22nd, 2012 at 6:22PM

    I will not marry again,I am however in love with some like myself.

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  15. Posted by An EP User on January 27th, 2012 at 10:02 PM

    After reading this, I just want to give you a hug.

    So, *HUG*

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  16. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 25th, 2015 at 10:43PM

  17. shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

    Reply by shelle48 Jan 27th, 2012 at 10:04PM

    thank you so kind

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  18. singwme - 56-60 years old - female

    Posted by singwme on February 2nd, 2012 at 11:28 AM

    you are lovely

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  19. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 25th, 2015 at 10:43PM

  20. shelle48 - 61-65 years old - female

    Reply by shelle48 Feb 2nd, 2012 at 11:31AM

    thanks but I'm not all that.

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  21. Jennyv - 36-40 years old

    Posted by Jennyv on March 2nd, 2012 at 6:47 PM

    You seem like a strong woman. That is very sad. I am hanging on to my marriage. She loves jenny very much. It is hard for her though. Sounds like you deserve someone special. I wish you the very best.

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  22. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 25th, 2015 at 10:43PM

  23. wetrubbers - 61-65 years old - male

    Posted by wetrubbers on April 17th, 2012 at 6:43 PM

    Hang in there Shelle I too know how you feel about your loss its coming up to 5 years since I lost my wife and can't explain the pain but you and others on here know and feel it. Don't worry about the tears either we all do it, it shows you have feelings. Live for her and you and enjoy it the best way possible.

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  24. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 25th, 2015 at 10:43PM

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