I was five when my half older brother
sexually harassed and raped me. My parents had left him to babysit me. He repeatedly raped me for hours it seemed. At the time I didn't know what he was doing, all I knew was that it hurt and that I wasn't suppose to tell anyone. Cover with my own tears and blood he insisted on giving me a bath. When my parents got home it still hurt so I told my mother only to get slapped. She told me not to tell anyone, so I didn't. She didn't even care for me and that I was hurting so bad. I hate my older half brother, he went to jail when I was ten years old for drug transporting but got out a couple months ago and is living with me. I hate him here, the way he looks at me and treats me. I wanna kill myself and get everything over with. But i can't kill myself just like that, I have to make it look like an accident so my dad won't be disappointed .. i need help.