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   Posted by littleduckie on November 11th, 2008 at 8:50 PM

   Everyone deserves to be treated with kindness . . . I'm sorry for what you are going through right now & hope things will get better very soon.

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   Posted by BettyValentine on November 11th, 2008 at 8:53 PM

   honey, it's not something you probably want to hear right now... but maybe you need to get out of that relationship, maybe it's toxic. seems to be poisoning you... send me a message anytime if you want to talk about it, i feel like i understand it as i've been in similiar relationships. it's tough.

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   Posted by apencilfornow on November 11th, 2008 at 8:53 PM

   I agree with littleduckie- you deserve to be treated with kindness and respect. Don't regret showing your feelings- he needs to see that he's hurt you. My thoughts are with you.

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   Posted by IsabellaLarkin on November 11th, 2008 at 8:54 PM

   Oh I get this:( And you ARE deserving of kindness..

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   Posted by Toby2day on November 11th, 2008 at 9:05 PM

   Sweetie, we all deserve kindness. It's taken me forever to figure that out. But the only think I found that has ever worked was honesty. Hoping you find it.

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   Posted by ready2shrug on November 11th, 2008 at 9:19 PM

   Obviously, we don't know the ends and outs, but you deserve respect and to feel accepted no matter what, even if you really did screw up (which I highly doubt). Please don't beat yourself up over something, whether it's your mistake or something out of your control, because we're all human and we screw up and things don't go right in our life.... regardless, we deserve to feel accepted and validated. If you don't have that in your current relationship, try talking to a friend (be it one you know in RL or one here), because it's very sad to see you hurting like this and I think you're desire to cut/drink/do drugs rests in knowing you shouldn't be hurting so badly and wanting the pain to stop. FWIW, I'm glad to see you realize those things aren't solutions, and hopefully talking with a good friend will help some (maybe it won't fix everything, but it seems like you need someone to remind you of your value). I wish I could do more, that the people here could, but just believe in yourself and see the value in the things you do. I'm sure it's hard to see now, but there are many things you do right and many reasons you should feel wonderful about who you are.

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   Posted by atali on November 11th, 2008 at 9:41 PM

   Thanks so much, y'all. Your somments brought tears to my eyes. R2S, I did talk to one of my dearest friends (I tell her if I ever win the lottery I owe her so much for therapy) and I am so grateful for this outlet on EP. You all are so wonderful. We may never meet for reals, but know I love you all!

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   Posted by ferrin on November 11th, 2008 at 10:38 PM

   I am sorry you are going through this pain. I am in similiar pain. Although, I do not wish to cut myself.
   I am so sorry for you, dear.

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