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L96Arctic - 22-25 years old - male

Posted by L96Arctic
on January 31st, 2012 at 9:41 PM


Everyday it's something! Why do people always have to stick their noses into my life and blame for everything? I help these ******** in any way possible when they have a stupid problem or a serious one but as soon as I have one all they do is make fun of me. I played video games to calm myself down, everyone thinks that's ridiculous and give me crap for it. I suppress every ounce of rage until I start to shake, they tell me I'm over reacting. I start to cut myself because the pain and blood helped everything disappear, they call me an idiot, threaten me with an intervention, and call me a cry baby. They wonder why I don't ******* talk to them? I'm nothing, but nice and they treat me like ****. Even the ones who say their concerned about me and say they love me will give up at the first sight of resistance and blame me for everything. Who the **** are you to tell me what I can and can't do. I need a ******* vice whether you like it or not! Ok fine, what the **** would you rather I do? "If you like pain so much get a tattoo," "Start smoking weed." Really? Those are your suggestions? How about I set you on fire and light all your cigarettes off your burning corpse? Would that be a good vice? What about if I just started killing people? Kidnapping babies? Any of these strike a cord? You **** everything that moves, which is probably why you have a bastard child in the first place, and you're in a marriage just for the money. All you do is ***** about every aspect of your life every ******* day and I help you out no matter what. And now for the best part! The one thing I actually enjoy doing and makes me feel happy is fighting, the other kid used to cut himself in deadly places. I don't anywhere near the veins and they aren't even really THAT deep. But yeah, threaten me to stop or I could possibly be kicked out. That's just ******* wonderful.
You want to know why I've been "acting like a psychopath lately"? IT"S BECAUSE OF YOU PEOPLE!!!! Don't crawl up my *** about things you won't even have a logical discussion with me about, because when I do try to talk to you, you change the subject immediately after calling me some colorful name. But it's fine, just keeping talking about it behind my back, yeah I know you do because you always bring it up when you threaten me. How about you stop having your little clucking sessions and TALK TO ME!!
I guess I'm just being ridiculous again because I "wouldn't understand."  And I swear if you use that phrase one more time I'm going to punch you in the ******* throat!
You want to know why I don't talk to you anymore? Because you're all hypocritical ******* ********. I don't want you do anything for me so stop putting on the fake smile and trying to do nice things for me. Stay the **** away from me or I'll use my blade on you! And I promise the cuts I put on you will be deeper than anything I've ever done on myself, test me I ******* dare you....

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  1. rahkeepschanging - 26-30 years old - female

    Posted by rahkeepschanging on January 31st, 2012 at 9:55 PM

    Well... that amount of rage is probably not too comfortable. You could be so much happier if you just let it go. Hating people is only letting them get under your skin. If someone really means nothing to you, it is more likely that you will just move on and forget them. Going into a full-out rage probably means you care. I'm a law student and have read a ton of criminal law cases. Nothing surprises me. You do not want to act on these threats. For one thing, e-discovery is getting big these days so the court may be able to look at this and show premeditation, which would make the penalty much more severe. Get a shrink and do what you can for your own sake...

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  2. L96Arctic - 22-25 years old - male

    Reply by L96Arctic Jan 31st, 2012 at 10:11PM

    It's really not comfortable, but they've taken away everything that makes me happy or lets me get rid of it. I would try to forget them, but I currently work with them and I don't have any options to leave. There are times where I would like to yell and scream at these people, but I don't believe I would ever physically hurt them. I don't get a shrink because that would get my family involved and I'm NOT doing that. Besides, I shouldn't have to pay someone to listen to me.

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  3. rahkeepschanging - 26-30 years old - female

    Reply by rahkeepschanging Jan 31st, 2012 at 10:25PM

    That sounds rough. Just try not to let people get the best of you. You still have things about you no one can take. Sorry to go all lawyer on you. And paying someone to listen is not all that bad... it's actually quite fun after a while. It's putting me in the hole, hah!

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  4. Posted by An EP User on January 31st, 2012 at 10:01 PM

    Wow, I'm sorry to hear. I can relate. People just blow. *hugs*

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