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I Have Fallen From Heaven Because G-d Tolerates Abuse And Lies And Manipulation

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WhoisChaff - 26-30 years old

Posted by WhoisChaff
on February 21st, 2012 at 5:23 PM


I wish I had a better story.  The title really sums it up.  The people hiding behind Jesus causing harm to my life are to blame.  It's real hard to get over these things.  How am I supposed to even trust a human being after the torture you put me through?  Oh, well I'm simple, that's how.  But how I live with the torment or do not live with the torment is what's eating me alive.  I try and try to stay away, but I'm fed this emotion or that emotion and I just keep coming back like an emotional slave to emotional abuse.  I'm waiting for the Saints to come marching in and topple the Earth.  I'll continue to avoid the places where you hurt me which is really everywhere (all media, friends, family, my mind, my country, my neighborhood, school, public).  I don't know how I carry on because these things come back for me.  I hate how you hide behind Jesus because your fathers wrote the scriptures.  They were not evil men like you.  Where do I ever get away with anything without being abused, let alone for doing nothing?!  Well, you should be made to pay as I do.  You should be made to pay for your evil ways.  You can't play punishment with me while you play forgiveness for yourselves.  I have fallen from Heaven. 

I'll carry this cross for sin

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~*Ezekiel

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  1. Posted by An EP User on April 25th, 2012 at 6:31 AM

    There is so much negativity in the world that is being released. It saddens me that you feel this way but it is acceptable. I realize and have read through your stories, sensed your emotions through your words and understand that life sometimes is not kind to everyone.



    Know this though, your strengths lay in your wanting to live, yearning to keep moving. Otherwise, you would have already departed from this world. A different thought... a different perspective... one teaches others to learn and understand these human conditions. It is said that the warriors are challenged by these tests while the weak can only see the problem and in need of acting upon it. Are you are warrior in that sense, whether fallen or otherwise? Some of your brethren have come willingly while others ... perceived their own fall.



    You my friend have not fallen... you are being tested in order for you to rise above these problems you face. The greatest strength is facing your fears head on rather than running away.



    Would you run away if all that you love, all that you care, and whatever you stand for is in danger? Would you fight along side those that are facing the same problem as yourself?



    These are trying times we face and you above many people know that and understand it. Yet, your challenge, your personal life goal is still ahead of you. Its your choice and your test whether you do something about it and keep moving in life or be part of the masses that fall to their knees unable to get past their test.



    Stay strong, I know your facing life and its changing ten fold. Keep moving and don't look back. Healing takes time, but what you should do is acknowledge what the main problem is and face it.... without simply blaming God without action, without doing something about it in your own life. Your challenge... your goal... your will to survive.



    -Skies

    ~Zadkiel

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  2. WhoisChaff - 26-30 years old

    Reply by WhoisChaff Apr 25th, 2012 at 9:18PM

    Thanks.

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  3. Sealotus - 31-35 years old - female

    Posted by Sealotus on April 25th, 2012 at 7:42 AM

    Each time Skies writes he touches direct to the goal.... very wise words...



    I will add, face your demons, face your challenges, face it all without fear...



    "I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear.I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain --Frank Herbert, dune"



    What do you want in life.... just a little cozy life... or a real challenge??

    You may or not have chosen it but you have in front of you real challenges, to over pass those will bring you such great accomplishement in your life!!



    me I choose the challenge, cause there is no worth in a cozy life... Having challenges to face is what will prove your worth...



    we are all here facing same challenges as you friend, some have it harder than others, but those given the greatest challenges are often the most powerful of souls.

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  4. WhoisChaff - 26-30 years old

    Reply by WhoisChaff Apr 25th, 2012 at 9:19PM

    Thanks.

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  5. godangelgod - 18-21 years old - female

    Posted by godangelgod on April 25th, 2012 at 11:36 PM

    well everyone else has alredy told u a lot.all i can say is GOD has sent us to learn something ,to make ourselves strong, and to bring life among all darkness..u need to be raised u will raise u r not a fallen one anymore.so dont disappoint him we are only his last hope.he dosent want to c us loose the battel against dark.



    darkness will rise ,it will never die but still its our job to bring life and love and care for others on this beautiful art work of GOD.



    and never loose hope.

    we ur EP frnz are always there for u. :)

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  6. WhoisChaff - 26-30 years old

    Reply by WhoisChaff Apr 25th, 2012 at 11:38PM

    Thanks.

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  7. indigowitch - 22-25 years old - female

    Posted by indigowitch on April 26th, 2012 at 7:17 PM

    Amen!!!! And I will further say: don't listen to the "other" angels above.... Your attitude sounds sound to me!!! Hahaha for not even those who call themselves "holy angels" or "incarnated angels" are holy; they are just as filthy and morally corrupt than the rest of humanity...yet hiding behind a pretty face of "God's this or that".... Real Angels must be holy; no? Not deceitful little liars etc. Therefore I'll rather be a djinn or a demon - knowing my flaws... My darkness than to pretend to be something I am not "God's holy angel" what the **** ever, ****** me off...and those that hide behind the name of Jesus also pretends to be "holy" like those who claim to be holy angels but they are truly rotten to the core!!!!

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  8. godangelgod - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by godangelgod Apr 26th, 2012 at 10:27PM

    the only difference is we can control ourselves.none of us is calling themselves angels.we are just the one who can try to win over darkness.ofcourse someone has to afterall darkness is defined as absence of light. :)

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  9. godangelgod - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by godangelgod Apr 26th, 2012 at 10:32PM

    and further it is not important that all the angels are holy.even if we have done something wrong it dosent mean theres no going back.GOD's gate is always open for everyone.

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