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bloodyrainbowe - 18-21 years old - female

Posted by bloodyrainbowe
on March 17th, 2012 at 12:47 AM


i have been a self-harmer for 9 years well off and on it stared when i was 5 ( my dad died ) and i was doing that for about 2 years and then stopped and i have started again because my best friend in the hole world died a week ago and i have already gotten help but nothing works anymore i just don't think i want to stop but i kinda do and kinda don't it is hard to explain ................ 

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  1. drkailashrathi - 22-25 years old - male

    Posted by drkailashrathi on March 17th, 2012 at 1:20 AM

    no dear... harming youself will not solve your problem.... and harming yourself shall not bring them back to life...

    there is a lot more available in your life ... so live it to the fullest!

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  2. bloodyrainbowe - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by bloodyrainbowe Mar 17th, 2012 at 1:21AM

    thanks but i can't help it

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  3. drkailashrathi - 22-25 years old - male

    Posted by drkailashrathi on March 17th, 2012 at 1:23 AM

    i feel you should try looking at the bigger picture and try not to imagine things which aren't seen in it... good luck!

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  4. bloodyrainbowe - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by bloodyrainbowe Mar 17th, 2012 at 1:24AM

    ok then thanxs

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  5. Posted by An EP User on March 17th, 2012 at 1:27 AM

    Although I have heard a lot of people do this, things must have been difficult for you to feel that you had to do that. I hope that you find someone who truly understands what you are going through, and that you finally will have the freedom to fully feel what you feel. Hugs to you. Keep asking for help and don't give up. Maybe the help you had wasn't enough or right for you. I wish you the best.

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  6. bloodyrainbowe - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by bloodyrainbowe Mar 17th, 2012 at 1:35AM

    thank you all for your support

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  7. tayzerXIII - 18-21 years old - male

    Posted by tayzerXIII on March 28th, 2012 at 9:24 AM

    sorry for hear that, don't harming yourself, and look around there were be many people who love you and they will be feeling bad to see u like that.

    wish u the best

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  8. bloodyrainbowe - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by bloodyrainbowe Mar 30th, 2012 at 6:50PM

    thank you

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  9. dasquirrel2 - 41-45 years old - male

    Posted by dasquirrel2 on April 24th, 2012 at 3:40 PM

    I hope you understand that you aren't broken. It hurts(which is oddly good at the time) then it slowly heals. Which feels good too. Then when you feel no pain, it feels like you are missing your old friend and you find him again and all feels strangely right again... yet wrong because people tell you it is. I wonder if people smoking will ever be so wrong that people will try to "fix" smokers like they do you? They are doing WAY more damage to themselves. What about drinkers? Hmmm same thing... way way way more damage. You heal and that is that. Lungs and liver don't heal as easy as skin seems too ... hmmm just a thought. Next time when it hurts so good, revel in that pain and enjoy it. Don't let an even an ounce of shame creep in and ruin that complex feeling.



    My favorite color



    I feel it roll in like red tide

    entrancing- beckoning astride

    illuminating my sharp soul mate

    I fervently swallow my pride



    the crimson drops begin to flow

    tranquility they seem to bestow

    the pain remains reminding

    red is my color in the rainbow



    Tim

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  10. bloodyrainbowe - 18-21 years old - female

    Reply by bloodyrainbowe Apr 24th, 2012 at 4:22PM

    thank u and i love how u understand and i love your poem

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  11. dasquirrel2 - 41-45 years old - male

    Reply by dasquirrel2 Apr 24th, 2012 at 4:52PM

    my email is my profile name at y a h o o if you want to speak privately

    Reply

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