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lover21JJ - 22-25 years old - female

Posted by lover21JJ
on April 8th, 2012 at 12:05 AM


I remember when i was younger, Aunt flea would sit back and say your going to miss me when i'm gone... and I would always say no i'm not cause ur not going to leave. In 2006  when she was diganosised with esogal cancer I was scared, I was afraid she was going to die and i wouldn't see her ever again... She fought throw it for two and a half years... I would see her often in her hospic room, the last week she was alive she barely was responding, her time was about to come. I remember feeling as if it was my fault she was dying and that there was nothing I could do to save her... I wanted her to be around when i got married and had kids... I need her advice when i needed someone to talk to I would always run to her... I came out about being trans, I need her to be there for me and to tell me everything is going to be alright... I know everything isn't going to be alright... Its been about three years since she passed away... oh where does the time go? I often wonder if she would be proud of me or not... I wish i could see her again and give her a hug but all i have are a few pictures, and two cards and some memories.... I never knew i could miss how life was or the people in it this much.... I feel as i didn't appricate all that I had when i was younger.... I wish i could go back to a simpler time.... back when the most i had to worry about was keeping my grades up or what i wanted for my birthday.... I hate how hard life is and all the crap I keep getting, sometimes i feel as if there isn't a point to life but i remember i still have people here to go to...

I miss you Aunt Flea

RIP: October 2008

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  1. ann5272002 - 41-45 years old

    Posted by ann5272002 on April 8th, 2012 at 12:16 AM

    your aunt will always be there sprity and god is with her now time will come u can always talk to her i to losy my mother and father 2 days apart i miss them so much and my oldest sis and brother,grandma but i rember when i feel sad ,down gods there and he miss us to he will take the pain bless u and your family

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