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drkailashrathi - 22-25 years old - male

Posted by drkailashrathi
on April 15th, 2012 at 1:06 PM


I am a final year dental student. Both my parents are doctors and also they want me to be a doctor. 

Since my childhood I was somehow acquainted with playing music. My dad bought me a piano when I was in my 4th standard and we found that I had few inborn skills about music. After this in 7th standard, me and my brother joined guitar classes and learnt a few basics in guitaring. I grew more and more eager to learn music. At that time, I had no idea about how big I can do as a musician, nevertheless, I never thought that I can become a professional musician. But after few months, I was sent to a residential school and my elder brother was sent to Bangalore for his undergraduation. Well, my growing passion to learn music was not the exact reason for which I was sent to the new school.

This school did not have provision where I could learn music and I did not get a chance to learn it till today. I still do not know why my performance in the academics too fell drastically during that period. I used to be in top 5 in my class in my previous school but I fell down and I suddenly became 50% or 60% candidate in my 8th standard. Somehow I passed in the 10th standard too and I was insisted upon to pursue my 11th and 12th standard at a college in which my dad studied too at Hubli. My dad was expecting a huge leap in my academics and also wanted me to get a seat in a medical college just the way he did i.e., through merit.

All these years, right from the day I was put into the residential school till I finished my 12th, I was totally disturbed and I do not know why. Whenever I asked my dad if I could join music classes for leisure atleast, he used to tell me to finish my studies first. I have come across a few people's life who start their training in music during their teenages so as to be the best.

Till today I never got the chance to learn music but somehow on my own, I have learnt playing flute and guitar. This has taken me 5 long years to do and yet i'm an amateur. Even during these last 5 years of my ongoing undergraduation, whenever I gathered some courage to ask my dad if I could learn music, he still told me the same statement: "Finish your studies first".

Right now i'm 24 years old. Next, immediately after internship he wants me to get married after I start earning. If I'm ought to pursue my postgraduation, there are no chances in the next 4 years for him to let me do what I want to do. By the time I finish my pg, i'll be 28 or 29. When do I get my chance to make my dream come true?

My dream is to be an entertainer, I want to make people dance on my music, I want them to enjoy as they do it while listening to the greatest musicians of time.

After my 11th standard, I do not know the reason for why its happening with me, but right from my 12th standard I took a second attempt exam for every academic year. Moreover, my 3rd year of undergraduation took me 3 attempts, though the subjects were considered too silly to be failed in. This time its my final year and I just pray it does not happen again as it is considered to be the toughest challenge to pass in a single shot.

I'm just fed up being looked and mocked upon as a loser by my friends, family and relatives. All my friends I had till date are either earning or pursuing pg. The people whom I respected the most treat me like a dog and it feels like i'm good for nothing.

Looking at the things which happened till now, I never had any confidence and I don't think I can survive in the highly competitive world. I never tried to go against my dad's decision because I respect him and I don't want him to upset him more as already he is upset with my worst performance in my entire batch.

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  1. aaaa2bbbb - 26-30 years old - male

    Posted by aaaa2bbbb on April 15th, 2012 at 1:38 PM

    why should you ask your dad for learning guitar? you could have tried inspite of studies. a lot of people do that, right?

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