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My name is my symbol of defiance

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StephanieManoso - 31-35 years old - female

Posted by StephanieManoso
on April 16th, 2012 at 11:13 AM


Before I was born, my mom and dad had Valerie and mom was trying to make her the 'perfect burg daughter', Val complied easily. Dad didn't like what mom was doing, but when he objected mom just tore him down. Out of spite, he named me something to which my mother was bound to object. But he did it in public so that my mom who always had to be the center of gossip and 'ideal burg wife' couldn't object to her husbands desires. From that point on, she had her mind set to hate me, and when I refused her every wish to turn me into everything I loath, and when she failed to get anything into my head, she began taking in out on dad. His armor began to show the chinks and he eventually gave in. Mom pushed me to marry and have kids my whole life. Now, being with who I am with, she doesn't dare, and, a few years ago, after dad finally got over mom cheating on him with the person she wanted ME to marry he was bolder, stronger, and mom started to stop having her opinions heard.

So the following should explain the reason behind the title. When I was born I was called such:

Stephanie Hermione Teresa Caitlin Scarlett Valerie Michelle Tamara Cori June Toresa Francesca Sammantha Jane Plum

Yeah, long name. When I was old enough to actually understand that dad was on my side, dad and I added Nancy to my name, just before Jane. When I went to school, when I went through a period of time when I had multiple personas, I met someone called Leanne, so I added that to my name, before Jane, but after Nancy. I did it so that I could show my mom how little I relied on her, and preferred my friends to her.

As an adult, I got into jobs where I had a load of forms to fill, with so many names, I grew to hate writing out things in my name. But surprisingly,  when it came time to use deed poll to change my official name, I didn't change it to what I had been calling myself for short; Stephanie Michelle Plum. Nope, I added those two names that meant a lot to me from my past. So now that I'm married, my full name is:

Stephanie Hermione Teresa Caitlin Scarlett Valerie Michelle Tamara Cori June Toresa Francesca Sammantha Nancy Leanne Jane (Plum) Manoso

Everyone calls me Stephanie Michelle Manoso,
Now I can sigh like that too,
But sometimes I write my full name,
Out of spite maybe,
Calling me those three names,
Instead of the monster I otherwise hold,
It's what I want,
But for me my full name,
Has always been,
And shall always remain,
My own symbol of defiance.

:Thank you for reading :)

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  1. SaintMaj - 36-40 years old - male

    Posted by SaintMaj on April 17th, 2012 at 2:47 AM

    May I call you Steph ?

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  2. StephanieManoso - 31-35 years old - female

    Reply by StephanieManoso Apr 17th, 2012 at 10:55AM

    go ahead :)

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  3. SaintMaj - 36-40 years old - male

    Reply by SaintMaj Apr 17th, 2012 at 12:57PM

    may I call you Lola ?

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  4. Posted by An EP User on April 20th, 2012 at 10:59 PM

    I love it!



    But holy$h!t!



    Why do I love it?

    Cause of the rebellious nature of the whole story. :)

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  5. AZdesertman2012 - 61-65 years old - male

    Posted by AZdesertman2012 on April 22nd, 2012 at 2:41 PM

    En Espanol your name would be: Estefanía Hermione Teresa Caitlin Escarlata Valérie Micaela Támara Cori Junia Toresa Francisca Samanta Leandra Nancy Juana (Ciruela) Mañoso

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  6. AZdesertman2012 - 61-65 years old - male

    Posted by AZdesertman2012 on April 22nd, 2012 at 2:48 PM

    En Espanol your name would be: Estefanía Hermione Teresa Caitlin Escarlata Valérie Micaela Támara Cori Junia Toresa Francisca Samanta Leandra Nancy Juana (Ciruela) Mañoso

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  7. StephanieManoso - 31-35 years old - female

    Reply by StephanieManoso Apr 23rd, 2012 at 9:20AM

    i know. im married to a Cuban and everyone around me can speak spanish. everyone but me. !!!N :( damn. i know enough to order me a cake but thats it :(

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  8. AZdesertman2012 - 61-65 years old - male

    Reply by AZdesertman2012 Apr 24th, 2012 at 1:54AM

    Okay I can help.... after you order your cake, add on "Da me un Cafe" So, you'll have coffee and cake!

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