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Posted by Anonymous
on May 5th, 2012 at 12:58 AM

I love my father and he is coming to pick me up from school by himself and I'm really uncomfortable with the idea of just being with him alone and I dont know why. Ive always been like this. In first grade I didn't go to a dance because it was weird to dance with your father I thought.

When I was younger I feel that I was a very abnormally sexual child. When I would ask boys to drop their pants in exchange for some favor. I would put my tongue in people's mouths and well I also made up stories about men having sex with me.( I was 6 or 7)

Now I'm the opposite. I am extremely rigid when it comes to sex and do not really feel comfortable being alone with any man. Let alone having a conversation or sex or anything.

What is wrong with me?

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  1. Posted by An EP User on May 5th, 2012 at 1:00 AM

    sounds like you were sexually abused : /

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  2. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 28th, 2015 at 1:00AM

  3. MuffinAss - 31-35 years old - female

    Reply by MuffinAss May 5th, 2012 at 2:48AM

    Not trying to insist he did anything but there has to be a reason why you feel strange around your own father. Could have just been a male figure who you trusted. You should talk to someone. Your fears are gonna make it hard to have true intimate relationships. It doesnt have to be that way. Good luck.


  4. okhoney - 56-60 years old - male

    Posted by okhoney on May 5th, 2012 at 11:37 AM

    Hi to both of you ladies are having trouble. I am a man a father and a grandfather.

    If it would help you you can feel free to message me at any time. We can keep it clean and nice known as the talk or or anything to do with sex.

    Like MuffinAss said it sounds to me like you were abused the somehow very early on in you childhood and you both just blocked it out.

    Hi another therapist of any kind. But I do know how it helped my wife. Before I met her from what I can figure she was abused for 45 years of her life. I was the first man then she ever met who did not abuse her. She had a very hard time dealing with that. So we started talking about it and about flashbacks she was having. Then one day to realized she is not having flashbacks anymore.

    Unfortunately she passed away 5 1/2 years ago on just waiting for my time to go now. In the meantime if I can help someone else through talking I will.

    But please whenever you do try to get help and be careful who you talk to and trust. I wish you both all the luck in the world.

    Once again message me if you want to. Good luck

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  5. Anonymous

    Reply by An EP User Apr 28th, 2015 at 1:00AM

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