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IMaCUTTER - 16-17 years old - female

Posted by IMaCUTTER
on May 7th, 2012 at 10:39 PM


i may be new to the community.... but its not the first time i've tried to end my life...

i so badly wanted to die so yesterday before my family got home from church i swallowed a bunch of pills. i don't know what they were but i was hopeing it would work this being my 2nd or 3rd attempt. i went to sleep hopeing not to wake up. but i did and i wasn't happy about it. so i took the rest of the bottle and swallowed them and drank some hard liqour. i tryed to stab myself but punished myself instead by slashing my arms. i went up stairs and the pain started to set in... i wasn't suppose to wake up it was suppose to be painless like going to sleep and never waking up thats all i wanted. the pain got so bad i cried for my  mom and i started throwing up. i hate myself for failing. but i'm to tired to try again. so for now i'm just going to sit here and cut.... and let the pain flow out until i'm to the point of death again. then maybe then i will suceede. maybe then i'll be string enough. this is just a look a the present... maybe someday if i make it that far i'll start from the beginning. who knows maybe it will help. 

-IMaCUTTER & i hate it

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  1. Quinn1313 - 16-17 years old - female

    Posted by Quinn1313 on May 7th, 2012 at 11:03 PM

    Please stop doing this to ur self I know how much life hurts and how much easier it seems to end the suffering and mistreatment. But I am sure there is some one who will miss u and cares. If not I will care because I my self have wanted death over life at times.

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  2. IMaCUTTER - 16-17 years old - female

    Reply by IMaCUTTER May 7th, 2012 at 11:06PM

    thank you so very much... and i will try hard... i know people care my mom for one... life is hard but i will tell my story and maybe that will help me through. i am very happy that i have found a place where i can speak out and not be judged for it. now i am rambling thank you so much you have brought a small ammount of happyness into my eyes. hmm thanks

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  3. Quinn1313 - 16-17 years old - female

    Posted by Quinn1313 on May 7th, 2012 at 11:35 PM

    You can also count on me if u need someone to listen. ;)

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  4. IMaCUTTER - 16-17 years old - female

    Reply by IMaCUTTER May 7th, 2012 at 11:55PM

    for sure... *smiles for the first time in a long time

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